Luna

Chapter One

Cruel Fate

Lilly

Today has, so far, been normal for me. Normal as in going to school, trying to learn, and trying to look at the ground for the whole time.

You see, I can't just dare, not even once, to look up and stare at anyone around me.

I am not allowed to look at them, I am not allowed to look at their eyes.

I was born this way, and I can't blame them for not interacting with me. For in this world, I am an embarrassment. A liability. A disappointment. Heck, I even feel disappointed on myself. But what can I do? I just need to accept fate as it is.

Yes, fate has been cruel to me. It has been two years since I learned that I don't have a wolf. Yes, I was born in a pack with two perfect werewolf parents. No one understands the genetic malfunction that happened to me. I tried to talk to every pack doctor, most of whom dismissed me. A few took interest in me and my unusual situation. But, all of them saw me as an experiment. A project. I had enough of them treating me like a specimen. Just like how my parents had enough of me. They had enough of a wolf-less daughter who brought nothing but embarrassment in the family.

Well, technically, I am not part of the family anymore since they kicked me out of the house a year and a half ago. Actually, they never really treated me as family even before this fiasco. My former family had always been resentful of me. After all, I'm their ordinary daughter who didn't and couldn't accomplish anything. And they already have their perfect daughter, Analise, to be proud of.

I have, long time ago, accepted my fate with my family.

But having no wolf? I think that fate has been more than cruel this time. The day I was supposed to shift was the day when my life and soul has been crushed.

Having no wolf means I am a weakling compared to everybody. I will only have a human strength. It means that I will forever be a social outcast in this pack. And I cannot go out. I am not allowed to leave this pack. I have been too involved and I have too much knowledge of the pack for them to let me go. Black Mist Pack just can't take that risk. Pathetic? Yes, but those things are not the reasons why my soul and my heart was, still, and forever will be broken.

Well, you see, having no wolf means having no mate. Or close to it.

Having no wolf means I don't have that distinct smell that shall distinguish me from other creatures. I cannot recognize any mating pull. It means my mate, if ever I have one, will not be able to find me. It is like having a human mate. It is rare but it's possible. There has only been less than twenty recorded human-wolf mating in the werewolf history. There are billions of people around the world, and with no smell to indicate which one is your mate? Well, let's just say it is close to impossible to find your mate. More so in my case. I cannot go out the pack territory without authorization, and such authorization can be only given if there is a legitimate reason. However, there can be no legitimate reason for a wolf-less girl like me. The only chance that I can find my mate is if he is in the pack. And I seriously doubt he is here. Every wolf in this pack already knows who I am. And every mate-less wolf in my age goes to this school.

That is what I convinced myself. I know there is a possibility that my mate is here, and he just refused to acknowledge me because I am the lowest of the lowest rank. Being a wolf-less werewolf, I am neither considered as werewolf nor a human. And no sane wolf would associate with a freak like me.

Just like today, I keep on looking at the ground as I find my way to my classroom. I am a hungry because I haven't had my breakfast. This is the day before end of the month, so, my food budget is gone and I have to wait for Mrs. Harley to give me my salary as her student assistant. She told me to meet her before lunch, which is good. Well, not really good because that means that I will need to go to the cafeteria to buy my lunch. And my schoolmates don't really welcome me there. Or anywhere in the school premises for that matter.