When You LOVED Me...

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Ah, if I could just die.

Mia thought. She doesn't know how to feel, after coming back to earth from that enthralling moment, she could not able to meet his eyes or anyone's.
The blush became painfully permanent and the tension in her body just multiplied tenfold.

If she could go back and stop herself from doing this. Stop Aaron from stealing her first kiss.

Her feelings erratic and a her heart saddened when she perceived it was all an act.

Of course, she knew. But she could not believe she went with it so far. She could not lie to herself that she forgot it was an act. In that moment she also wanted to kiss Aaron. She was too thinking that how it would feel to have his lips on hers. And She could not deny, when it happened she enjoyed the feeling, the butterflies, the  sparks, more than anything in her life.

That was how it supposed to feel, it would be the best moment of her life, if it wasn't an act. She could not bring herself to be angry on Aaron too, but now she knows that she would be hiding away from him, maybe for rest of her life.

God, why this was so complicated.

She was sure that the kiss meant nothing for Aaron, and she was also not sure, what it was for her.
But it brought to life, so much impassive feelings in her.

Stop it! It was just a small kiss.

Maybe when she woke up tomorrow, everything would go back to normal. The knots in her stomach and her emotions would be less messy than they were. She thought.

Really Mia.

Ah, bloody mind, what do you want from me?, she screamed in her mind. But she remained still, gazing out of the window of car not once turning towards Aaron to see what he was doing. She just couldn't face him. She bit on her lips remembering the kiss. It was playing in her head like a default. She felt worse than a teenage girl. If she would have focused more on the rare dates she went then her books, It ain't have to be this big deal.

But it was a big deal. At least for her.

Yeah, only for you.

She decided, she was going to cry on this only then she would feel better. Her mind won't let it go so easily. It was already making her go mad.

She rested her head on the window sill and closed her eyes trying to sleep.
After that dance, they dance on few more songs with others on the stage. But they were not the same like the first. A wall of unknown emotion had fallen between both of them after that kiss. They were disconnected for the rest of the party, but no one suspect the tension other than the couple.

Dinner was painfully slow. Arav was teasing and Arnav well, he seems to have a problem with her, the wedding maybe. Mr. Rathore was unusually happy, he was celebrating too much in the party, which was odd. But everything about the man was odd to Mia. And Mrs.Meera was caring as always, asking her time to time,If she was okay.

Mia wanted to say, she was far from okay. It was going too far than she could manage.

But she just smiled and nodded. Her mother would be proud now. Finally, she managed to bewitch so many people into thinking things that was not true. Finally, she learned how to fake smile.

It was really a shame. Such a romantic moment didn't happened, but was planned. She could do nothing but release a sigh of despair.

They were strangers.

They were there just for a year.

She reminded herself and fell into darkness.

He saw her falling asleep, beside the window. Her head jerked off and he caught her before she can hurt herself. He gently placed her head on his shoulders and brushed the stray locks which fell on her face that was hiding her gorgeous face fron his prying eyes.

A sigh released from her lips on his touch. And he couldn't stop himself from entrancing by her innocence, her natural beauty.

She was not a beauty of a model. Nah, they were fake, she was real. He could not see it before because of the frustration of the situation they were in. But as the day were passing he could see the bond from a new angle every day.

He thought it was a weakness of her that she was so obvious. But he himself found liking it most about her personality. Like the fact that it was her first kiss, was so obvious.

No, he hadn't known before. If how she stilled in his arms and didn't react at all, didn't give it away, then it was for her tensed form and not meeting his eyes afterwards.

After living in New York for all his teen life after years, he almost forgot how much painfully shy a Indian girl could be, or Was it only her?

He liked it for a matter of fact.

If he had a choice to change the past, he would not have it in any other way, he would try to seek more nonetheless.

He was being selfish, but he wanted to be selfish for him, for her.

He stroked her cheeks once again. He could see she doesn't know how much beautiful she was. She would not be nervous about herself, if she had known.

But it would be going to change soon. He thought.

His thoughts came to an halt when the car stopped. Not wanting to wake up the sleeping angel, he quietly exit the car and lifted her out of the car in bridal style.

She was not a lightweight, he would not lie. But nothing that he could not manage. To his etheral relief, she didn't wake up.

He carried her to her room and gently placed her on the bed. He removed her heels and extra jewelry. Then tucked her under the duvet.

After placing a chaste kiss on her forehead, he left.

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Hey lovelies!

How are you amazing people?

Another update.

I warned it was cliche. And I also realised I am giving too much to you people to read between the lines.

But bear with me.

Hopefully we are going there.

Until next time,

Kai_po_che!

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