The VIRGIN STRIPPER

24

****Lisa Michaels****
My hand hang on the knob as I watched Dave approach. A part of me was ecstatic— over the moon even. The other part stood there unbelieving until he was actually in front of me.

He took a small step toward me then stopped and took as much air into his lungs as he could before he opened his mouth to say something which never actually came out.

"You wanted something?" I asked calmly trying not to smile at his flustered almost lost look.

He actually looked cute! I smiled at the thought and withdrew my eyes before I went too deep.

"Can I come in for a moment?" He asked quietly and I pressed my lips together. Drawing my lower lip in to nibble a little as I thought it through.

The only reason I kissed him at the park was because I was overwhelmed after seeing him in so long. It felt so right to at least show him that I felt something. But now I was afraid that my thrifty behavior with him would cause a confrontation and I would end up telling him what I actually felt — of which even I myself was afraid to find out or even explore for that matter.

His thumb ran down my chin as he slowly brushed his way up until he tugged my lip free from my teeth without saying a word just looking at me as he did so.

I felt myself shiver at his touch and the way he eyed me made me feel vulnerable. As if I was too open for him to read me so easily.

"I don't know what you are thinking." He said once I glanced away from him.

"Yeah, come in." I replied quietly and pushed the door open, suddenly aware that I might have been a little braver at the park than I actually was.

"It's a beautiful night." I heard Dave's voice from behind me and nodded as I tried to calm myself a bit.

Placing his jacket on the hook by the door, I walked to the living room just as he had advanced the couch.

"Can we have a little talk tonight?" He asked taking me by surprise.

Sitting a bit further from him I nodded and struggled for something to talk about.

Yeah, I'm sorry I kissed you at the park. I was just so mad and seeing you made me want to make sure the next time we met you wouldn't think of me as a mere pussy that just whipped you around...!

I laughed quietly at my thoughts and watched as Dave gave me an amused look.

"It's nothing." I said quickly with a smile playing on my lips.

"Okay," he said slowly observing me before he turned and looked elsewhere. "How have you been?" He asked after a moment.

If I were to be honest to him my answer would be that I didn't know how I had been. I was just walking through it all. One day I was okay the other I wasn't. That's how it had worked for the twenty one days I'd been keeping to myself.

But I was afraid. That if  I told him how I actually felt then he'd be interested and I would end up pouring my heart out to him and right now, that option felt so chancy to me.

"I... I have been... fine." I stuttered the words out quietly and slowly as if I was trying to make sense to them myself.

"Lisa, I still need to know how much you owe Mr. Pavel." He told me quietly and I roamed my eyes ahead of me.