My brothers best friend ||STILES STILINSKI||

17.

The bell for the end of the school day rang and my head shot up from my desk waking me up, crap I fell asleep again. I was reading the perks of being a wallflower, it's not like I was paying attention anyways.

When I was reading the book in class, a quote from the book caught my eye. I don't think I'll ever forget it either. it said "we except the love we think we deserve". It made me think of Lydia. Jackson is so horrible to her  and she is such a sweet smart girl, I just didn't get it until now. She doesn't think she deserves better then what he treats her but she truly deserves so much more.

the movie scene also stuck with me long after I watched it. Charlie the main character asks his teacher "why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?". his English teacher responds and says "we except the love we think we deserve". Charlie then asks his teacher "can we make them know that they deserve more?" And the teacher gives him and smile and says "we can try". It makes me wonder if Lydia will ever realize on her own that Jackson doesn't deserve her, or will she forever be stuck thinking she isn't enough?

I got out of my seat feeling a sudden sadness wash over me. I don't know why. I was doing so well, I was happy for the first time in a while since I came back to Beacon Hills. But now I'm starting to feel that empty feeling again. I can't explain it, it's like I'm happy and sad at the same time. I don't want to say everyday feels the same, but it does. Some teenagers probably dream to live the life I'm living, and it really is exhilarating sometimes, all of this super natural werewolf stuff. But it's just not enough anymore.

I found myself loosing track of what I was doing and in the middle of the parking lot. How did I get here? I was just looking for stiles. I'm loosing it again, but I can't tell Scott or my mom I don't need them to worry about me they have they're own problems.

I was still standing in the middle of the parking lot until a car came my way and almost hit me. It was stiles. He quickly jumped out of the jeep and ran over to me.

"Aurora what are you doing in the middle of the road I was looking for you everywhere. I thought you left with Scott or something" he said grabbing my shoulder and walking me to his jeep. He opened the car door for me and helped me into the jeep. He walked around to his side and climbed in and shut the door.

"Aurora are you okay?" He asked concerned. I looked at him and didn't say anything. "Aurora are you still having episodes?" He asked. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression right after my mom and dad split. My mom noticed me acting different and took me to get checked out.  When I was diagnosed my dad took me and blamed it on my mom. Even though It wasn't anyone's fault but mine.

Another reason I hated living with my dad is because every time I had a episode, which was quite often when I lived with him, instead of helping me he threw me in a mental hospital for weeks. I had to get away from my dad, and I finally did.

"Aurora?" Stiles asked me, because I still wasn't responding I was just picking at the dead skin around my finger nails.

"I don't know stiles" I shrugged.

"Aurora You can talk to me" stiles said looking me in the eyes.

"I just- I just don't want to give you anything else to worry about. we already have Scott to worry about. it's okay I'm fine." I said.

"Aurora your not fine" stiles said pulling out of the parking lot until he slammed on the breaks. It was Derek he was in the middle of the road.

"Oh my god" I said opening the door and running to Derek. There was multiple cars behind us waiting to leave the school parking lot. Including Allison's which Scott was in.

Scott got out of Allison's car and ran over to me stiles and Derek.

"What's wrong with him?" Scott's asked. I was bent down next Derek.

"The argents-" he panted. The argents?

"What about them?" Stiles asked.

"Chris's sister came into town and shot me with a wolfs bane laced bullet" he said out of breath breathing heavily. He looked terrible, he was sweating, pale and had horrible bags under his eyes.

"Oh my god, Allisons aunt. She said she was coming into town but didn't know it was for- you know, werewolf hunting" I said quickly.

"Stiles get him in your car"Scott instructed.

"What why me" stiles whined.

"Come on stiles" I said grabbing Dereks arm and throwing it over my shoulder trying to help him up. Stiles bent down and took derek's other arm and helped me get him to the jeep.

We shoved Derek into the middle seat of stiles' car climbed in and then quickly pulled out of the school parking lot.

Derek was sitting in between me and stiles while we drove in silence until Derek said something.

"So you two" he said motioning his hands towards me and stiles. really he's sick and dying and he's talking about this. Me and stiles glanced at each other with the same confused look on our faces.

"Are you guys like dating" Derek said as if he wasn't dying.

"Derek I appreciate you trying to make small talk, but your dying. i'd rather not talk about me and stiles" I said looking Derek in the eyes. He just laughed in return.

"You know Aurora, you're different then Scott and stiles" Derek said.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"You don't give me the same glares they do, your nicer to me, why?" He asked.

"I don't know" I shrugged.

"You do know, now tell me why" he demanded.

"Because I don't believe you're evil Derek, or a villain like they make you out be. I just think you have a story that you haven't told us yet, that made you the way you are, and I don't mean what happened to your family. Something else that we don't know about" I said spitting out what I've been holding in for a long time.

"I am a villain Aurora, just not it your story" he gave me a small smile and looked away.

"Derek I don't think you're a villain in anyone's story, I just think you're misunderstood"

"Thank you" he said, I swear I saw his eyes light up a bit. I don't know what he's been through, but I knew for sure there was more to his story then his family passing. Derek may pretend to be a cocky, rich happy guy, but his smile just isn't quite right. There's something about his smile that just makes me wanna  give him a hug.

"Where are we going?" Derek asked stiles.

"To your house?" Stiles said driving.

"NO" Derek yelled.

"Well where else am I supposed to go?" Stiles said slamming on his breaks.

"Anywhere other then there, they know where I live"

And with that stiles turned the jeep around and headed to the animal clinic where Scott works at. Scott is currently at Allisons having dinner with her family, and trying to get the bullet Derek was shot with out of Allisons aunt Kates bag. I don't know why we need the bullet it's just what Derek asked for.