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Kabanata 6

Kabanata 6

I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only person who screams multiple 'what the effs' in their mind when someone tells you that they like you. Agad na kumuyumos ang aking mukha habang tinitigan ang sarili sa salamin.

"Anong nagustuhan n'ya sa 'yo? Para sa isang patatas, ikaw na 'yata ang pinaka-plain sa lahat."

I scolded myself infront of the mirror. Inisa-isa ko pa ang bawat imperfections ko para maging panatag na hindi ako nagkakamali sa hinala ko na baka trip lang talaga ni Gio na maging paasa.

Albeit, not being the prettiest girl in the world — naranasan ko na rin naman ang maligawan at masabihan ng maganda. Pero sa tuwing akala ko ay totoo ito, I would be replaced easily with a prettier and much more better love interest.

That was the usual scenario. I was constantly being replace with someone who's prettier, more talented, more brainy and just someone who's better over all.

Kaya naman pakiramdam ko ay hinuhukay ko ang sarili kong bangin na pagkakahulugan kung sakali na maniwala akong crush ako ni Gio. He was the unattainable person that I'm avoiding!

"Paulene, kakain na. May dala akong palabok," Mila knocked on my door before entering. She was barefaced but her pointy nose and almond shaped eyes are enough to make her look beautiful.

Partida ay wala pa siyang make up. I admire girls who know how to put make up on their faces. It makes them feel more confident and I wished I was more like them. I wished I could wear make up and feel good about myself. Hindi ko iisipin ang mga iniisip ng iba tungkol sa akin at kung bakit gusto ko gumamit ng mga make up.

"Favorite ko!" I beamed and she smiled back. Bumaba na kami para kumain ng dala n'yang palabok. She unwrapped the bilao and served me with servings of palabok. We also had a quick conversation about her entire day. She met a few artists and some even asked for her number.

"Ikaw? How was your week?" Mila asked while twirling the noodles on her fork. She looked up to me.

"Someone confessed to me," I almost gagged. "Pero wala naman 'yon. That's pretty usual for you, right?"

Mila has tons of admirers. Iba pa ang mga fans n'ya. Madalas siyang pinapadalhan ng mga regalo na mamahalin at lahat ng luho n'ya ay natutumbasan ng kan'yang mga tagahanga. She is well loved. She deserves it. Pero hindi ko maiwasan ang isipin na sana ako rin. Even for a minute, I would like to experience to be on her shoes.

"Sino?" she asked, putting down her fork. Kumuha siya ng orange juice upang uminom at hindi inaalis ang tingin sa akin.

"Hindi mo 'yata kilala," I chuckled, nervously.

"Hm? Edi kikilalanin ko," Mila simpered which made me feel uneasy.

"Kaklase ko lang at b-baka na-turn off na 'yon sa akin."

"Who wouldn't like you, Paulene? I'm sure he still likes you." Mila surmised and playfully tucked some strands of hair behind her ear and proceed to resting her chin on her palm.

The thing is, I know, that I'm not that bad. Hindi ako sobrang ganda pero kahit papaano ay hindi rin naman ako sobrang pangit. Hindi ako matalino pero pumapasa ako. Hindi ako talented pero may mga kaya naman akong gawin. Hindi nga lang sapat para piliin ako.

I simply just don't stand out.

Dumating ang lunes na para bang hindi umamin sa akin si Gio, he didn't seem to mind while I'm going crazy thinking why would he like someone like me. It makes me wonder and ponder on his reason for liking me instead of LJ who's pretty, Zafirah who's smart or even Melanie who had a humorous and positive personality.