Sister Mine (Dabi X OC)

The "Real" Hikari Part 1

Staring blankly forward as rays of sun peeked through his window, Hawks' glazed over expression barley recognized the sight before dipping his head towards the floor once more. His mind was a mix of chaos and haunting calm, so much so that the man wasn't sure how he had even gotten to this position from in the first place.

No, everything seemed like a horrible blur, his hand moving an inch to the left only to feel a large empty glass container next to him, a bottle that he just barely recognized once held alcohol.

Wait, had he been drinking? When did that even happen?

He then forced himself to tilt his head ever so slightly, only to just barely make out five more bottles of the same brand of alcohol, all empty and discarded.

The sight should've concerned him greatly, considering Hawks didn't even recall drinking one glass, never-mind five whole bottles.

Yeah, it should have concerned him, but the hero instead forced himself not to dwell on it, choosing to keep his mind numb as he also forced every single thought out of his head with the fear that it would break him entirely.

The truth, the reality of the situation, he didn't want to know any of it.

But as much as Hawks tried to erase everything, it seemed that one single solitary thought kept popping up in his mind, tormenting him and torturing him ever so slightly, until he had to force himself to believe it.

His sister, his baby sister was gone.

And not only that, she was a villain. She was the very thing that he had sworn to protect her from, the very thing that he had never wanted them to turn into, the very thing their father had always wanted them to be.

He would never believe if he hadn't seen it for himself firsthand. The distant look of hatred in her eyes when he came close, the cynical and ear chilling laugher at his own misery, the way she had set everything up just to watch his downfall.

She really hated him, didn't she?

Closing his eyes at the onslaught of memories, Hawks lifted his hands to his head in order to block out her sweet little voice, the one that he had replayed time and time again as a hero, the one he thought would never change.

The shaking little hands of a seven year old kid, the small hiccups and cries when he would hold her as she slept, the hopeful look in her eyes, it all seemed like torture to him now, a torture that kept reminding him of who was now gone.

"Kei-chan, I wanna be just like you when I'm big!"

"You're the bestest big brother ever."

Gritting his teeth so tightly that it drew blood, Hawks felt himself let out a whimper before shoving his hands over his ears to stop her little voice, the one that was no longer real, the one that was destroyed by his foolish dreams.

"S-Stop it, just stop it already!! I don't want to hear it, I don't want to hear it anymore..!!"

Yet the voice didn't stop as more memories seemed to slam into him, picturing the Hikari he once knew, every word tearing into his heart over and over again.

"We'll always be together, right?"

"You can be a hero like this, right? Then you should do it."

Shaking his head once more, Hawks than threw the bottle he was drinking out of his hands as it shattered on the floor before lowering his head pathetically into his knees like a little kid.

He was lost, he was so lost on what to do.

"H-Hikari, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I left you, didn't I? All these years, I only thought about myself. I'm sorry, you should have never told me to be a hero. I ruined you..."