(Em's POV)
I walk out into the living space where Pat and Mon are.
"How'd it go" Mon asks and I just shake my head and sit between the two of them
The tears just keep falling. It's over. It's finally over. It's time to put myself back together
"Come here" Mon says as she opens her arms and my body falls into them
I'm finally numb everywhere. I can't feel anything.
I just lie in Mon's embrace and Pat rubs my legs, just letting me know hes here for me.
"I'm gonna check up on Sam" He says, I give him nod and he gets up off the couch
(Sam's POV)
How did this happen. All because I needed to drink. Fuck alcohol fucks everything. I know being drunk is never an excuse, I need to make this up to her, but I have no idea how I'm going to do that.
A knock echos through the room
"Come in" I say and I lie up from the bed and wipe the tears off of my eyes
"How are you going" Pat says as he comes into the room and sits down next to me
"I don't know, I thought it was Em" I say trying to make sense of what just happened
"I assume it wasn't" Pat says and I give him a nod
"I come out of the bathroom, someone grabs me, I thought that someone was Em, and we start dancing, kissing, until I realise the time and I start to look for her, which is when I called you"
"So you did realise it wasn't her" Pat asks me and I realise what I just said
"Yeah, but not until after everything had happened on the dance floor" I say, but I think we both know what just happened. I cheated.
Every single little detail is coming back to me.
"What do I do skip, I need her" I ask him. I genuinely have no idea what this "break" is going to turn into
"She needs time, you did the one thing you promised not to do" Pat says and I know its probably for the best but I have no idea how this is going to work.
"How much time" I ask him knowing damn well that I wont like his answer
"You need to let her breath, she needs to pick up the pieces by herself" Pat tells me
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(Em's POV)
As the days go by the pain lessens. It's becoming easier to see him. Sam and I have talked a couple of times but not for very long.
When Zac found out he almost punch Sam but Pat thankfully stopped him just in time.
Zac told me the night that he caught Sam and I on the couch, Sam told him he wouldn't break my heart and if he did Zac would kick him out.
I hope it doesn't come to that, but something is going to have to change at the house because I don't think Sam and I are sleeping in the same bed.
Zac's mood has definitely dropped since he found out, it's just in his DNA.
He is trying to be civil because Sam is his teammate, but I know that every time Zac sees a tear drop from my face, he anger just keeps on building.
Sam definitely trying to steer away from any intersection from Zac because he knows that one wrong word will send Zac into overdrive.
Thankfully, the boys have sensed the tension starting to bucked with the two of them and helped keep them separate!
Everyone has now figured out what happened, or a little bird told them, as in Bam Bam.
It's better if everyone knows, it just makes it less awkward on the trip.
Maybe the break up was a breath I needed. A way for me to focus on myself for at least a little bit.
The last couple of days have been super relaxing. All of the boys messing around playing sports and us girls have been tanning by the pool enjoying the Queensland sun.
Mia has been blowing up my phone asking to come over, and it got to a point where I just couldn't say no and the girls forced me to say yes to her because they want to meet her.
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"Jesus Christ, I'm gonna need google maps to figure my way around this house" I hear Mia scream from by the pool
I immediately jump up off of the lounge chair to go and give her a hug
"Jeez, someone missed me" she says when my arms fully wrap around her
"You have no idea, I need you right now" I say whispering in her ear
Don't get me wrong I love all of the girls here but nothing compares to your childhood best friend, who has been with you since your One Direction Stan days!
"Hey, you need to introduce me" Mia says whispering in my ear, bringing me back to reality remembering that the girls wanted to meet Mia
"Oh yeah, Mia, this is Jord, Isabel, Bell, Mon and Gigi" I say and they all start to introduce themselves indivaully
It didn't take long for Mia to fit right into this group!
Jord and Isabel made up some Cocktails, with probably a bit too much alcohol, but it helped me relax, so I didn't care.
Mia was mainly spilling all of the embarrassing childhood stories that made everyone including me laugh.
It was like all of the problems had drifted away for a couple of hours.
Before we knew it the sun was setting and the boys were heading back into the house because it was their turn to make lunch.
"I need to go to the bathroom" I say and quickly get up before I even have the chance to make eye contact with Sam
I can hear footsteps behind me thankfully I recognise them and they are Mia's
"You don't have to follow me you know" I say without even turning around to face her
"Yes, but I need to know your okay" Mia says and we make it into my new room
"I'm getting better, it was hard at first realising what had just happened, and being here with him doesn't make it any easier, but I also think it it better being here with him because we can't just avoid each other" I say as I flop onto my bed
"Has he tried to talk to you" she asks me
"He's said hi, but hasn't tried to have a conversation with me" I tell her
"Do you want him to" Mia asks
"I don't know honestly, I mean we are adults we will have to figure this out at some point, but I don't know when the time is" I tell her
"You definitely don't have to rush into it, you need time to heal, you were together for 2 years, you deserve that time" she says, and I sigh
2 whole years I spent with him... was it a waste... I don't think so, I love him and I think I always will but I cant stop this feeling, the feeling that he didn't want me.
Did he want me, surely, I mean if he didn't he could have easily broken up with me before he came to the idea of cheating on me.
"Stop it, he doesn't deserve that time in your mind, we need to get your mind off this" Mia says and I just give her a smile
Ever since we were little she's always known how to cheer me up, no matter what I'm feeling she can make me snap out of it!
A/N
Bit of a boring one, but sometimes it's needed
If y'all like longer chapters... get excited for the next 2 chapters!!
Next chapter will probably be in about a weeks time........... but I think at this stage you guys know what that means
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The 18 Reasons I Love You - Sam Walsh
Romance[ ONGOING ] Emily is presented the best news ever, her dream had finally come true, he goes to tell her boyfriend but finally out something much more painful than him. She also starts to realise that she has feeling's for Sam Walsh. This is her story
