Till Forever Falls apart

How Do I Say This

I got up early so I could pick Kiera up from the hospital. I haven't seen her in so long. I miss her. To bad I have to break up with her today. I debated rather or not I should actually pick her up but that would be too much hurt in one day.

When I walked into her room she was still sleep. I decided to let her sleep and so I could think about how to do this. I have avoided thinking about how to breakup with her thinking the problem would just go away.

I could be nice about it. Tell her why I'm doing it. No I can't tell her my boss want me to break up with her. He might get mad and beat me.

I don't wanna be mean and leave on bad terms. I still wanna be friend with her after. You think she will still wanna be friends. Probably not. What am I supposed to do. I'm just going to do it old fashion. I think it's old fashioned. I've never been in a relationship therefore I never had to break up with anyone.

I must have been deep in thought because I didn't even notice Kiera woke up.

"What you thinking about baby" Kiera said sitting up

"Nothing. Do you know when we can go"

"Yeah the nurse has to come and check some shit then we can leave"

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The nurses finally came about 2 hours later. Kiera could tell something was wrong but I just told her I was fine even though I knew she knew it was bullshit.

"IM OUT MOTHA FUCKAS" Kiera yelled and Flipping the hospital

"You're acting like you were in jail" I laughed at her

"Shit it felt like it. We going to my house or yours" she said getting in the car.

"Best if we go to yours. My boss is still there"

"Don't let me see that fucker again. I still can't believe he did all that to my sweet little baby"

Kiera planted a soft kiss on my lips. When she pulled back I wanted to grab her and kiss her till I couldn't breath.

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We played music like always with the windows down. Kiera enjoyed herself singing along. I hate how I'm about to ruin all this. We pulled up to her house and it's now or never.

"Kiera wait before you get out I have to tell you something" She closed the door and looked at me with a smile on her face.

"How do I say this" I said trying to think of the best way to tell her.

"Say what. Just tell me. You know you can tell me anything"

" you know I love you, but we have..."

"We have to what. Billie you're scaring me"

"W- We have to break up"

Kiera's eyes quickly glossed and she shook her head.

"Please tell me you're joking" she said as a tear fell down her cheek. I cupped her face and whipped the tear with my thumb.

"I wish I was. I really wish I was"

"Please Billie. I love you"

She then cupped my face and kissed me. The kiss was slow and desperate. I pulled back and looked at her with tears forming in my eyes.

"I'm sorry ke but we can't be together anymore" I said wiping more tears off her cheek.

"Why? Why today right after I get out the hospital" she said pushing me away from her.

"I- I'm sorry I had to. If I didn't then-" I cut myself off

"Then what Billie"

"Just know I didn't have a choice"

"Bullshit" she spat in my face and got out my car slamming the door.

I watched her walk into her house and then slammed my head against my wheel and let a few tears fall before driving off.

When I got home I ran into the house looking for my boss.

"Where the hell is he" I yelled at CT and pistol walking past them

"What's the matter" CT walked up next to me and I couldn't help but slap him

"He's in the gym " pistol said still watching the movie.

I ran up the stairs and when I saw him I just looked at him until he noticed me.

"Are you happy? I did what you asked?"

"Good girl" he said patting my head. "I guess that means I can leave when I'm done with my workout" I simply scoffed and walked up to my room.

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I wasn't able to sleep all night. All I could think about was Kiera and how she must be feeling. I didn't even notice I was crying until tears hit my ears.

When morning time came I brushed my teeth and  threw on my Soto sweat shirt and the matting shorts.  Except one thing I can't find it. I then realized Kiera took the set because it was her favorite.

I just found a random sweat shirt and pants and put those on. I walked down stairs and as usual everyone was eating breakfast minding there business accept CT as usual.

"Damn boss are you okay. Did you smoke some blunts with out telling us. And your eyes are so puffy they could be a bouncy house for a five year old-"

"SHUT UP...if you have to be all on my dick I broke up Kiera the yesterday" I said still getting my food.

"So you're telling me she is single" he said with a smirk.

"Yes but  still mine so don't think about shit. Also you're with Sara." I told him walking up the stairs and he shrugged and went back to eating his food.

When I got to my room I sat on my bed and played a movie. For some reason I wanted to watch titanic. It was Kiera's favorite movie. I knew I shouldn't watch it but fuck it.

Naturally I skipped the first 20 minutes. That girl would rather die then watch the beginning.

I was doing pretty good. Up until the dinner/ dance scene. She would always make me get up and dance with her.

So that's how I spent my day. Watching all of Kiera's favorite shows and movie while crying my ass off.

Everyone came up to my room to check on me but I shooed them away. OD even rolled some blunts for me. I haven't smoked them yet but I will soon.