Fated By Stars (Fated Hearts, #1 & 2)

Chapter 14

What did I do? I hurt her more. She already despised me because I kidnapped her and I hurt her more. How will she ever forgive and accept me?

She had kissed me only a few hours ago. How will I ever forget her soft lips against mine, her body against mine so close to me with my hands around her? I never will. The first kiss with her will always be imprinted on my mind like a tattoo, and my skin will never forget the feeling. 

Although I never entered her mouth, the soft cold lips of hers felt so good. I didn't want to let her go; I just wanted to keep holding her, but she wouldn't let me for a long time.

When I was holding her after our kiss, I wished for time to stop so I could just stare at her beautiful face. She should know that it wasn't just a kiss to me; it meant so much more.

I have waited so long to kiss her. I thought she was trying to stop me from entering her mouth on purpose, but she didn't even know how to kiss. I wanted to devour her mouth, to taste every bit of her, every nook and cranny inside her mouth.

However, I didn't want to overwhelm her because she was only just starting to warm up.

But how wrong was I to think she was opening up to me when she clearly stated that it was only fear that made her come to my room last night.

I can't even begin to comprehend every bit of feeling that I felt last night. Her kiss intensified that feeling even more. It was amusing to me how she tried to avoid me by kissing my hands. At the time, I couldn't help but smile lightly.

At that moment, I forgot about kissing her; all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around her and protect her. Yes, she was not wrong, I asked for a kiss and she gave me a kiss, so, I should have just let her go but I couldn't help but want more.

Knowing that I was her first kiss made me feel like I had won a war, even though that is not why I want her. I would have wanted her even if I had been her tenth kiss. She is so pure not because she hasn't kissed or because she hasn't had a boyfriend; those are not the things that describe a person as pure. 

It's my Roselyn's innocence. Her smile. Her innocent aura. I'd seen her a few times before meeting her at the café. She had a happy expression on her face. She was kind, and she helped people she didn't know. She just seemed so happy, so far away from everything.

Every time I saw her smile, it made me want her even more. I wanted her to give me that smile. For her to want me. But I've never seen her smile like that since the day she met me.

I know I have an effect on her body, but that doesn't mean anything if her heart feels nothing for me other than hatred. That doesn't matter if her heart doesn't race the way mine does when I'm around her.

I am very good at keeping a cold façade on the outside but her warm eyes just melt that façade away. I want to be good to her.

I can't even believe I can talk about someone this way, better write a book now instead of running a mafia. She has changed so many parts of my being that and she is completely unaware of it. If she's afraid of me when I'm like this with her, she'd probably pass out if she saw the person I was before I met her or even the person I am today when I'm not with her.

I shouldn't have let her go out with Adriana in the first place. But she seemed so excited when I told her she could go. I had no intention of letting her go out; Adriana had already informed me that Roselyn had inquired as to whether she was going out or not. I knew Roselyn would come to ask for permission, and I had already planned how I wouldn't let her go without saying no,  that was to ask her to kiss me if she wanted to go out. It seems ridiculous for her to need my permission to go out because I am not her boss, she does not work for me.