CORBYNS POV
I wake up and I remember that I came to see Jonah yesterday. I look around and I see him. Jonah's still sleeping so I just look at him. I climb on top of him and kiss him. Jonah wakes up and kisses me back.
Jo: good morning
C: morning. I wanted to talk to you about something.
Jo: about what?
C: us.
Jo: what about us.
C: Jonah, I don't want you to get hurt.
Jo: I won get hurt. Corbyn I know my limits.
C: no jo I know my ways. I'll hurt you eventually.
Jo: and I'm willing to make that sacrifice Corbyn. Ok?
C: ok.I hug jonah and I head downstairs. Something feels off so I head back upstairs. I knocked on Daniel's door. I just look at him.
C: look I know you hate me but something hs like wrong.
D: you mean besides the fact that your abusing weed and sleeping with my best friend?
C: I don't even know why I asked you to help me.
I looked down with tears in my eyes. I turn around to try to pull myself together. It doesn't work. I find myself struggling to breathe. I turn around to face Daniel.
C: I know you hate me and I don't know why. You left me Daniel! So yeah I abuse weed and alcohol and it's because of you! I wanted you to marry me! But you left! Just like everyone else did! And I know when something isn't right. I don't know when you are going to grow up. I'm
Fine and I've got my problems under control. Just forget it.
D: I'm sorry. I just didn't love you anymore.
C: yeah and I know that. You don't have to run it in every chance you get. You destroyed me. I trusted you. So yeah I broke Scott's heart and I'm sleeping with Jonah. Oh and before you say anything, I know. I knew how miserable you were with me but I wanted you to stay but guess what? You left! And the worst part is that you promised that you wouldn't leave. Now I know that promises are meant to be broken. Especially one made by you. So yeah I abuse weed. It helps me cope and not think about you or anything else.
D: I'm sorry Corbyn..
C: yeah sure. Look I gotta go I told Jonah I'd be back soon.
D: ok.
C: I'm sorry for wasting you time. And by that I mean every moment you spent with me.I walk away with tears flowing down my face. I open jonahs bedroom door and I just look at him. I start to fall apart. I am crying and Jonah's trying to keep me from collapsing on the ground.
C: it just hurts. Why can't the pain go away!
Jo: I know baby I know.
C: I just can't do it anymore.
Jo: you have to try. For the kids and well, us.
C: Jonah I'm sorry I'm just stressed.
Jo: it's ok corbs.
C: I need a blunt..
Jo: I don't think that's a good idea.
C: you didn't have a problem with it when you were fucking me? So why now Jonah?
Jo: because your abusing weed.
C: did you hear Daniel's and my conversation?
Jo:no.
C: funny because he said the same thing.I light the blunt that I just finished rolling and take a long puff off of it.
C: don't do this to me now jo. We were having fun.
Jo: I don't want to.
C: fine. We don't have to fuck I just want to smoke with you. You don't even have to do that. I just- I need to know that your still here. Everyone else is gone. Daniel,Scott, and now you? I can't loose you Jonah. I choose not to. I've already lost Zach too. I just can't. I lost jack a while ago. Your the only one I have left. If I loose you, I loose everything. If I loose you, I loose myself and you will probably never hear from me again. This isn't blackmail either. The look on your face is concerning me tho.Jo: I can't keep doing this Corbs. I can't.
C: fine. I'll go. I'll leave you alone.
Jo: Corbyn.
C: No! Just don't.I grab my blunts and head to my room to pack a suitcase. I pack most of my clothes that weren't in boxes and I drag the suitcase downstairs and walk out of the door. As I'm putting my suitcase in the car and I see Zach.
C: don't bother trying to talk me into staying. I'll sign full custody of the kids to Daniel and Scott. I'm for fit enough to be a parent.
Z: I. I'm sorry.
C: don't be I bought this on nobody but myself. I'll have to live with that now.I get in my cart and welcome to hell zone starts to play on the radio.
But there's no medicine you know the cure
I just think that if things were different nothing would be so messed up. I feel a tear slip out of my eye. I just keep driving. Eventually I pull over because it's really dark. I check into a motel and I grab my bag.I check into my hotel room and I light a blunt and heat two brownies. I decided to eat a third brownie and smoke another blunt. I look around and I immediately call Jonah.
CONVERSATION WITH JONAH
Jo: look I told you that I didn't want to do anything with you.
C: Jonah I have no idea where I ammm.
Jo: why are you doing this to your body?
C: because Jonah. I have nothing to live for. All of my money will go to my kids. Spilt 5 ways. Are you write this down. Scott and Daniel will have shared custody over Liam and Laura.
Jo: Corbyn where are you..
C: I don't know I think I'm still in California I drove all day.
Jo: Corbyn please don't do this.
C: I have to Jonah. Nobody will even care!
Jo: Damnit Corbyn I will! Daniel and Scott are gonna feel very guilty. Zach is gonna feel broken and damaged. Jack. This will destroy him. He wasn't really close with you but he still cares.
C: that's not true. Stop lying to me Jonah.
Jo: Corbyn please.I hear that Jonah is crying.
C:ok ok I'll be home by morning. Text me in the morning and I'll come home. I keep my word.
Jo: Just come home.THE NEXT DAY
CORBYNS POVI wake up and see a text message from Jonah. I hop in my car and I drive back to the house.
When I get there I see Jonah sitting on the couch just looking at the floor. I have no idea what I said but it hurt him.
C: hey.
J: Corbyn.
C: Jonah look I-Jonah cuts me off by kissing me and I kiss back.
Jo: I missed you. I'm sorry that I pushed you away.
C: it's not your fault. It's mine.
Jo: let's go upstairs and sleep ok?
C: I think that's for the best.Jonah and I head upstairs and I lay down on his bed and he just kisses me.
C:what was that for?
Jo: for keeping your word. I don't know what I would've done.I noticed tears falling from his face. I just pull him closer and we both start to cuddle.
C: I didn't want to leave. Hey think I need help.
Jo: no matter what you do I'll support you.
C: Thank you. Thank you Jonah for just being here.
We both fall asleep and I'm laying on his chest.THE NEXT DAY
CORBYN'S POVI wake up on Jonah's chest and I just whimper. I feel a tear run down my face. Jonah wakes up and hears me whimper.
Jo: what's wrong.
C: I can't do it anymore!I just burst into tears.
Jo: Can't do what?
C: Pretend! Pretend that I'm ok! To see pretend that I'm not just using you. To pretend to be worth someone's time. To not feel useless or powerless! I feel like I'm loosing my mind!
Jo: but corbs your not using me, nor useless. Your not ok your worth my time and your not useless to me.
C: yeah you say that now but one day you'll call me useless just like Daniel,Zach, Scott, my on dad.
Jo: bub you can't blame yourself for everything that happened to you.
C: yes I can! Because I was useless! I wasn't wanted. I wasn't loved!At this point I'm screaming at Jonah and I'm crying so people come to the door. Daniel came first, then Zach, then Scott and then Jack.
D: you are loved.
C: How can I trust anything you say? You left me! You told me you didn't love me and how useless I was!
Zach: you are loved Corbyn.
C: I don't believe you.
Scott: you are loved Corbyn. Whether you like it or not. Suck it up and stop being a little bitch because you can't get what you want.I look at Jonah. He sees my eyes glow red.
Jo: no Corbyn!
C: I'm gonna kill him.
I am pulled back by Jonah and I walk away.
I head back into the room with Jonah.
Jo: hey baby.
C: hey.
Jonah kisses me and pulls me closer to him. I moan into the kiss and then pull away.
C: what was that for.
Jo: you needed it.
C: you think so?
Jo: I know so.
C: can we just lay here and cuddle. I just don't wanna be alone and I'm really tired.
Jo: No problem baby just relax. I'll stay with you ok?
C: ok goodnight Jo. I'm scared.
Jo: goodnight baby. Now get some rest. Of what?
C: of everything that's happening right now.
Jo: you're going to get through it. I promise.Jonah and I just lay there until both of us fall asleep.
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Lonely/ Dorbyn
FantasyThis is about a boy who feels lonely and has an unexpected twist of events to his life. A lot of things happen in this book so just try to keep up