Twisted in Ties (Loki x OC)

Chapter 75

Izetta's POV

I blinked slowly as my eyes opened. I stood up, looking around as I found myself back in Central Park, the same place Loki and I had danced. I looked around, confused. Why was I back here? I hadn't even thought about this place in so long. I...had wanted to forget it, for a time. Of course, I never could, thanks to him.

"You're lucky he didn't have you killed." Speaking of the devil, I was stunned as I saw him standing there. I growled, not wanting him there. He didn't deserve to be there. He didn't deserve to be heard.

"Get out of my head. I want nothing to do with you."

"I still think of this night, you know. That we shared together. I never forgot it. It meant a lot to me." I laughed bitterly.

"What a lie, what a lie, what a lie," I said, shaking my head at him. That's all you're good at.

"Izetta-"

"You clung to my body like you wanted it to last forever, but I know you didn't." I turned away. "You want to know where I've been? In my memories? You want to see it?" 

"Izz-" I remembered the lab and the torture I went through back on Earth. That was when I'd truly been lost. 

The world around us changed. He looked around, seemingly frightened by his new surroundings. I wanted to be satisfied with his fear, but I only felt the lingering pain that could never leave me.

"Nine years...nine years I was abused here. And coming to this place, helpless with no escape...it brought everything back." My breath quickened and my body started to shake. I tried to control my emotions, but the memories were overwhelming. "A-and you just sat with that lunatic, enjoying your drinks and the women and the parties without a care. But, as you said, it's just a heartbeat, isn't it? Goes by like a snap of the fingers for us." I glared at him, letting him see my loathing of what he'd done. "But I still have to live with the nightmare for the rest of my life."

"I didn't even know you were here!"

"You didn't even look, did you!?" I snapped. He said nothing, unable to defend himself. "Every single thing you do proves what I should've known from the start," I told him, my heart shattering all over again. "You never cared...you just wanted to run away. The minute you're confronted with your cons and your lies, you disappear, running from your faults and your mistakes to forget all the chaos you've created and leaving everything behind! You couldn't have a care in the world what happens to us! You know why? Because you're Loki!"

His expression was blank but his eyes were filled with hurt and regret. I didn't believe it. "You're a liar, you're a cheat, you're a coward, and you've never cared about anything unless it's what you have to lose. You turn your back on those who need you, you've deceived everyone who's ever loved you, and you keep doing it without even a hint of true remorse!"

"I didn't think this would happen!"

"That's not the damn point and you know it!" I towered over him, trying to ignore the bitter tears in my eyes. "You've never tried to change...and you never will, because it's you. This is who you are, or should I say who you want to be." And through it all, I still have pity for you...because I thought I saw something that wasn't there. I shook my head sadly. "This is what you've turned yourself into...and try all you want, blame everyone around you...but in the end...this will always be on you. It's not even that you can't change...it's that you won't. And I know why." 

He faced me, trying to look strong and trying to act like he didn't care, but I could see through him. I could see the man who knew I was right but was hellbent on convincing himself I was wrong. I could see the parts of himself he tried, but I couldn't see all of them. However, at that moment, I didn't want to see them. And he wasn't ready to let himself be vulnerable. He kept desperately trying to keep up his walls. He was still consumed by the lies and tricks that were drowning him.