Living Next To The Punk: Destel AU

chapter 40: hold on

T.W: suicide attempt 

It was a few weeks later and castiel was getting skinnier and skinnier his head still telling him he was fat and useless, his mother was getting worried and there was nothing she could do. It was a dark night it was storming it was raining like it was the end of the world. Dean was sitting on his bed trying to figure out how to apologise to castiel, to explain when he got a text from someone

Angel: dean I'm sorry the time we had together was amazing, this- what happens to me isn't your fault, I love you even though I want to hate you, you still are my love, you told me you wouldn't care if I died- well let's see about that- shall we.

Deans heart stopped his room was dead silent when he heard loud banging and crying. He bolted up and out of the door he rushed down the stairs and shouted he was leaving

"DEAN YOUR NOT LEAVING IN THIS WEATHER," mary shouted standing in front of the door

" ITS IMPORTANT," dean argued

" I DON'T CARE IF THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND IS DOING SIGNATURES IT'S FAR TOO DANGEROUS,"

Dean shouted " I THINK CAS IS GOING TO KILL HIMSELF,"

Mary opened the door and both of them ran out locking the door they banged on the front door of the Novak resident the door swung opened and there stood Becky her eyes were glassy

"cas he," she couldn't finish " I found a suicide note- he locked himself in his bathroom,"

Dean ran up the stairs, into castiels room and saw a box from under castiels bed it looks to be missing things from it, dean rushed up to the door and banged on it

"CAS HOLD ON OKAY- I'M NOT LETTING YOU DIE ON ME- OKAY," dean shouted through the door tears welling up in his eyes

"get them  out of here," Dean said to Becky

The boys were rushed out of castiels rooms and told to stay in their room dean stood back and then moved forward kicking the door down dean rushed in and saw castiel laying on the bathroom floor a bottle of pain killers and a bottle of old beer near castiels body

"cas.." dean whispered tears slowly sliding down his face

He rushed up to castiel and looked for a pulse it was still there

" don't leave me okay, please, I still need you," dean sobbed holding onto castiels shirt

Dean looked at castiel properly for the first time in weeks he was skinny, his arms were covered in cuts

"dean,"

Dean looked up and saw castiels eye half-open

"cas what did you- why did you," Dean couldn't stop crying

"I lost the person that kept me sane," he whispered

Dean cried harder he had done this to castiel

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, if Lisa hadn't I'm sorry," dean sobbed

Castiel let out a soft smile when Becky rushed in "they're almost here,"

Dean pulled cas into his lap

"I'm sorry," Dean kept repeating "I need you to fight," and " I need you to please cas,"

They could hear the sirens the ambulance screeching to a holt out the front

"cas your going to be okay there here now-"

Dean was ushered out of the small room.

They got castiel stabilized and took him out of the bathroom and took him to the ambulance