Ivory - An Eburnean Tommy AU

iv - instability, confusion, and delusions

Trigger Warning: relationship issues, beeduo angst oof, grief, swearing, shouting

Word Count: 2414
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"..Ranboo?.."

Tubbo croaks, feeling the headache setting in, "God, I swear if I get a fever or something-"

"What were you thinking, Bee?" He sounds mad.

Tubbo opens his eyes to see Ghostboo, and with how much his brows narrowed and lips pursed, he sure is upset, "You could have killed yourself back there, Tubbs..what were you thinking?"

The shorter figure left speechless. Ranboo..barely gets mad at him, he rarely ever speaks to him like that.

Why does..why does he even care?

Biting his lip, he looks away trying to act indifferent, 'it's not him, it's not him' he thinks, "Just trying to find Tommy, we're running out of time. He could be in danger, he-"

"Stop risking your life like that!" Ghostboo shouts, before he realizes what he did and looks away, "Stop..worrying..me like that. I worry, I always worry for you Bee. I'm sorry I haven't been helping you much, anyone is barely helping you much really. I get that you want to do this to make up for Tommy, but he's not gonna like knowing you risked your ass for his sake. He'll never forgive himself."

Tubbo widens his tired eyes before looking away. He couldn't face him. Not him, "Why.." he mumbles, his emotions are racking in his brain; sadness, anger, regret, guilt. Like his nuke experiments, he's a walking time bomb,

"Why are you acting like that?! You're not Ranboo! So why do you act like you care?!" At this points, he sits up, eyes seething to meet his eyes, while the other one stares back blankly, it's uncommon to see him to not smile when he acts so happy all the time,

"You spent your months in the server acting like you don't care about anything at all! You're happy that you're dead and you even hated Ranboo for how he acted when he was fucking alive! You have his memories but did you even care knowing about the fact Michael was kidnapped? You only saw him when Techno, Eret helped me rescue him. Did you even care about him?"

He ain't going back now, he's tired of Ghostboo's bullshit and the way he's been acting around him. Knowing that it hurts to see him around just makes the ghost looms around him more, and the fact that he's careless and nonchalant about everything, it annoys him,

"What about Tommy? You never thought about him? With how much you freely roam around this server, you never even had a thought of finding him? What did you do this whole time?!" He shouts, rage pooling his judgement,

"And why did you save me?! You don't actually care about me do you? Because if you do, you actually tried to show it to me months ago. You were like a fucking stranger to me, Ghostboo. And here you're acting like my lover."

Ghostboo took it all in, keeping his gaze unfazed to Tubbo's outburst. And by the looks of it, the other isn't taking it all back. Ghostboo understands it, well sort of. Tubbo's upset, he's grieving, and the ghost isn't helping at all,

"I am not Ranboo..at least..not anymore." He murmurs, showing a little smile, "I'm sorry if I can't be someone you used to love, Tubbo. I did try, but it's just not me. It's not there." He shrugs.

Tubbo's glare only remains. It hurts to give a death stare to the one you love, but he has to shake that feeling off, "But I do care. I do care about you, Tubbo. No matter how much you deny it, I'm still that same person you loved months ago. Who you treated fairly and kind. I only lack something that makes me not him, but that doesn't mean I'm no longer him at all..if that makes sense."