Lost Star~Ateez OT8

Wisteria Whispers

Take Me Out Already, I’m Begging You

Nyx POV
My eyes fluttered open again and I can hear the sounds of gunfire. There’s a bad aching pain in my back in multiple places. Yelling all around. “stay around her* *this ends now* the sound of the door opening and so many different footsteps running out the door
Someone putting their fingers against the pulse on my neck
*Don’t worry, not dead. Apparently it takes a lot to try and take me out* I was having a hard time trying not to fall back into unconsciousness. I wonder what’s going to happen. Did they call an ambulance? Were the cops called? Where did they go? Is it over now?
Maybe five minutes and there was a bunch of footsteps coming back through the door
*It’s been taken care of. Chan and his guys will clean up. We don’t have to worry about this happening to her ever again. Now let’s take care of our girl* - Hongjoong
*The poor staff. How traumatizing. Someone tell me what the fuck is going on with my back because it fucking hurts and I’m trying so hard to stay away. And where’s Callie. Tell me she got out safe. Where is she!*
*Whoa whoa, just one second at a time. Callie is okay. Hyunjin and Jeongin got her out safely and away from here the second they could. She didn’t get hurt. As for right now. We need to get you to the emergency and fast. There’s an arrow sticking out of your back and three throwing knives* - San
*As soon as the glass shattered they threw the knives right after I’m sorry. We weren’t fast enough, again* - Yunho
*Sweetheart I’m going to have to pull this arrow out of you okay, and the knives. It doesn’t appear to be deep but it’s going to hurt like hell coming out okay* - Yeosang
Hands grabbing mine, more hands holding me in place as he took them out one by one and I screamed in agony each time. Darkness threatening to take me down. I’m amazed I’ve stayed awake this long. How many times I’ve been almost taken out now. This is getting old.
I can feel them carefully lifting me up. Place my arms around two of their shoulders to carry me out. But I can’t tell who it is. My eyes are so blurry from crying and seeing black spots dancing across my vision.
*Just let them kill me. It’d be easier for everyone involved*
*Shhh babe, it’s all over now. It’s never going to happen again. You’re safe now*
Darkness. Depression. Devastation
Once again. Here I am waking up to the disgusting smell of cleaner. The hospital. Again. But I’m laid out on my stomach instead. I pushed myself up on to my hands and knees so I could sit down and figure out what’s going on
All the boys in here with Callie.
*Might as well just reserve a room for me here considering how many times I’ve had to come back* I started dying of laughter to the point where my stomach is hurting and I can barely breathe. I think I’m in shock
*Sorry, sorry. It’s not funny but it kind of is. And I think I’m just in shock. You can all go home if you want. You don’t have to stay here with me, I’ll be fine*
*We’re not going anywhere, were going to stay put right where we are until you’re ready, whatever you decide* - Hongjoong
The air is tense and awkward. Going from sappy and heartfelt apologies to being fucking hit in the back multiple times and leaving with more scars to worry about
*Well. I’m glad whoever threw the knives at me didn’t hit my tattoo because that would’ve majorly sucked*
*Are you referring to your hand?* - Jongho
*No I have another one on my back and there’s one going down my side as well*
Shocked faces and a bit of confusion
I’m not the same person I was and they’ll soon learn that. I haven’t decided yet. They all said a lot last night. Well I couldn’t handle hearing anymore and had to tell Seonghwa and Jongho to talk to me together but they knew. What to do. What to do
*Aw shit. Where’s my phone. I had to work today*
More confusion
*What’s wrong. I had to make money somehow being on my own*
*Oh nothing. Just don’t know what to say. Here’s your phone* - Mingi
I took my phone off do not disturb and my phone instantly flooded with notifications. A bunch of unknown numbers. And Sora and Hiro
I messaged them both apologizing and letting them know that I was in the hospital
I cleared the rest of the messages from all of them spamming me yesterday. I set me phone down and put my face in my hands, thinking.
*So I’m assuming I have to stay in this gown until I can get back to my hotel room*
*Yes. I’m sorry, you’re fine to leave now. They said you could as soon as you woke up* - Callie
*Thank fucking god. I want to get out of here*
I stood up from my bed and they all did too. Waiting for me to say something, maybe make some sort of motion. But I just can’t right now. I walked out the door and tried to find my way so I can exit the hospital. I can hear them all walking behind me, they’ve all kept their distance. Even Stray Kids
Finally making my way out the front door I waited until they were all outside too and turned around
*Is there something someone wants to say?*
*We’re just not sure what to do or say. We’re just waiting for you, take all the time you need* - Yeosang
*I don’t know what I want to do. I have a lot to process right now. Too many hospital trips and everything that was said to me before this happened. I’m not sure how to feel*
I stood there awkwardly unsure what to do next. Or what they were going to do, where they would even go
*You’re welcome to come with me to my hotel room. I’m not sure how well we will all fit but you can come with me if you want*
And with that. We made our way back to the hotel. I’m silence.
Pulling up in front and getting out we mustve looked weird. A big group of people, oh well.
Piling into my room they all sat where they could. And I went and changed and did all of my bathroom stuff. I haven’t looked at those boxes yet. I don’t have the heart to. I can feel myself close to forgiving them. Close to wanting to just forget it all and say let’s just start over again. I feel bad for making them wait. But honestly this is very hard for me. Maybe just one more
I opened the bathroom, all eyes on me
*Okay. This is the last time. This is the last chance and then I’m done. I’m tired of being hurt, I’m tired of going through this. I was just starting new life here and left the weight of what happened behind. One step at a time. Slowly, very slow. But we can try again*