Lost Star~Ateez OT8

Delusional Mind

Promises Don’t Mean Anything

Nyx POV
Damn I don’t even remember what happened. I wonder how long I’ve been passed out for. I can feel myself in a nice comfy bed and I’m laying on someone. I raised my head and saw Hongjoong looking back at me with a heartwarming smile
*Joongie what happened*
*It’s okay princess. You had a flashback and then passed out. You’re home now, I’ve got you*
I put my head back down on his chest and tried to keep my breathing controlled. This is my life now. Ptsd flashbacks and blacking out, how lovely.
*Why am I home though, I was hanging out with Chan and the rest of them*
His arms tightened around me
*Joong what’s wrong*
*Nothing princess. It was just better for you to come home after you passed out. I want to make sure you’re going to be okay*
I can hear his heart beating faster in his chest, without looking at him I moved my hand up to his face and gently caressed his cheek, feeling him lean into my hand. I do feel better like this. He makes me feel better
I wonder when I’ll be able to do more training. I’ll message Felix after and ask him
*Hongjoong are you keeping something from me?*
*Why do you ask angel?*
*I can hear your heart beating faster. Whats going on, please just tell me. Don’t keep me in the dark*
*Okay. Here it is. One of the members of Stray Kids has feelings for you, and that’s why I don’t like you being there by yourself. I don’t want to lose you*
*I only want to be with you guys Joongie. But how do you know that?*
*When you were in the hospital I had gone to the cafeteria and everyone else was sleeping. But when I came back I over heard a couple of the guys talking. And one of them saying they have feelings for you*
*What about Callie. What the actual fuck. I think of them as my brothers*
*I know princess. I’m not sure what’s going to happen with them now but she was devastated*
*I should call her. I really can’t believe this*
*Baby?*
*Yes Joongie*
*I really don’t want to lose you. And I’m scared that you might leave again*
*I’m not going anywhere Joongie. All I want is to be with you guys, as long as you all want me too. But I do have to tell you. The reason I went there today is because they were training me. I asked them to, don’t be mad*
*I know how much you want to be part of this when we finally take him down, I don’t like the idea of you being in danger. But we’ll train you, and when it comes to you, I will make sure you’re protected and safe*
*Thanks for understanding baby. I really feel this is something I need to do. I want to take him down and the guys that tortured me, here and in America…*
*One step at a time okay. I know you want revenge and payback. I’m worried it’s going to hurt you more if you take place in this*
*You’re right. One step at a time. For right now though. I just want to stay in your arms. Please just hold me, don’t ever let me go*
*Never princess* his arms tightened around me and he kissed my forehead, I can feel myself getting sleepy, I have no idea what time it is but maybe I should just sleep anyway

The Next Day

Nyx POV
I opened my eyes and saw him peacefully sleeping beside me, my arm is draped over his body and his arm is on my waist. I rolled over and checked my phone and saw that I have so many messages from Callie and missed calls. I better call her. It’s eight in the morning right now, she’s probably awake
-hello-
-callie I’m sorry I didn’t answer. I slept the day away and I’m only waking up now, are you okay?-
-honestly no, my heart hurts and I don’t know what to do. I feel betrayed and devastated-
-awe callie I’m sorry, Hongjoong told me what happened, is there anything I can do to help you? I’m here for you okay-
-actually yeah, do you think we can hangout today, maybe go shopping and get our nails done?-
-of course! I’ll start getting ready now and I’ll get one of the guys to drive me okay-
-thanks Nyx. I really appreciate it. Text me okay-
Call ended

Okay. Time to get ready. I got out of Hongjoongs bed as carefully as I could so I wouldn’t wake him up. And I went to my room and started getting ready. Brushed my teeth, washed my face did my hair and makeup and got dressed. All in all it took me about an hour but I’m all set to go. Now I have to ask one of the guys to drive me. I text Callie and let her know I’m done and will be heading out as soon as I wake up one of the guys.