The sweetest nightmares (Loki&Elsa and Jack&Elsa function novel)

Part 6 - Edward, as I can see him

Elsa :

Oh... Edward.
What a complexed person!
He is the streanges person I have ever met.
Does he threating me?
Does he hate me?
Does he like me?
I can't understand.
I sighed.

I just can't figure him out!
I can read people very well,
but the questions constantly popping up;

From the outside,
You can tell he is bad person;
A hell of a character,
Insolent,
Crafty,
Hothead,
with a huge ego,

He intentionally hurts me.
From a bad habit I gess.

He is used to be rejected by the society, becuse everybody who knew what a bad person he was, so they naturally tried to stay away from him.
They saw only bad in him.

I could be rejected too if everyone knew who I am and what I'm capable of from the beginning.
All my power. all my secrets.

That makes us have a lot of things in common.
We are both outsiders, we both have dark sides.
Only our lives turned out differently, that's what makes our point of view very different. I gess....

I created small snowflakes and toyed with them as they shriked out of my fingers with cold wind.
I sighed again while they left my touch.
While I was thinking about everything. about him.

He meaked me blush.
What is that feeling?
It drives me crazy!
I am worm,
I am cold ,
I am week but I am strong,
I am happy, and even tho I must
leave.

What is happenning with my heart?!

No! I am too murves.
Don't freeze anything.
Consitrate.
Breath.
I filled my lungs with air, released it away with the western wind.
Western island. Edward.
Why is everything remindes me of him?
I caught my head with my hands.
What happened there that was so special? Why do I want to meet him now?
Let's see....

I am going through our meeting again in my mind.

I proudly faced his subtle insults, like any normal person will do,I gessed,
Apparently not.
I am not very strong when it comes to insult people,
he recognised that and knew he will win very easily.
Ecsept that, he thinks that he always wins that kind of fights, because of his personality and cericter, no one will even daer fight against his successful way to hurt people.
Not even mention of getting too close.

He'll destroy anyone who will go against him or interfere him to reach his goals.
And I foolishly went against him.

Of course I looked weak.
As I knew I was,
as he wanted me to feel,
as he knew I will look.

But he is too proud of himself.
Of his fictional impervious heart iron shield.
He thinks no one can get through it.
I proved him he was wrong.
I turned that massive arrogant he has against him and reminded him exactly how he looked, for my point of view, in every comment, so I'll be able to defend myself from his poisent words at least.

Of course I have failed.
It only made him get stronger,
Even tho, he liked my objection,
he liked the fact I tried to challenge him.

But,
Even he looked at his best,
even it looked like he was going to win,
Just in the end of our sarcastic fight,
In the last moment of our dangerous war dance,
when he was at the height of his power, and I was ready to lose.

Suddenly,

I looked straight into his black, deep eyes,
He look straight into mine,

and for some reason that I can't understand,
he stopped all attacks.

Gave up.
Surended.

He looked at me with that same strange, soft, submessive look,
And his eyes had the same strange lightning like in the last meeting.
Even that I was terrified from this sharp decrease in his aggression , from this streang situation and from the look he gave me.
I was charmed from the depth of this person so much, that I couldn't thought of another thing ecsept....
Edward.

No one but me could see as deeply, as I have seen in him....
I saw another side of him when he looked at me;
Vulnerable and hurted side ,
But full of emotion that I can't understand.

Bleeding side,
that is revealed for my eyes only.
begging for forgiveness and good care for unknown sins it had made.
For the unknown sins Edward has made.
What were his sins? Are they that bad?
Mercy captured my heart.
He said I know nothing about sins
and I found pain within his eyes even he tried to hide and ignore it.

When I saw my strong enemie harmful,
I saw his soul;
A tourchered black knight, with a hope for forgiveness,
only because he saw someone.

Only because he saw me.

It makes me ask:

Why me?
What is so special of me?
What makes me look like a chosen one to judge him?
Will he ecsept my opinion, obey it, let me take care of his wonded soul?

When he saw me,
He acted like he saw an angel with a halo around it,and surended to his kindness.
Like a mysterious power products the angle he just saw,
But I am not an angle, I am a monster!

How could he be attracted to me?!
Oh no!

Is he?!

I am getting more and more stressed and red only from thinking about him!

Stop thinking! Stop feeling!

But I can't.
I am drowning in my foggy mind every time I enter into it.

I have always tried to conceal. Don't feel.