The sweetest nightmares (Loki&Elsa and Jack&Elsa function novel)

Part 29 - Remember that nightmare

Elsa :

I got out to the cold emptiness of the snowy outdoors, thinking about what happened after I went out of his room yesterday:

All rosie red, thinking about him,
after I got away so quickly that he was almost able to think that I don't like him and that I despise any kind of touch with him, while my opinion is exactly the opposite one!
No, no I am over reacting. He couldn't infer that only because I ran away soo quickly.....
But there is no chance that he missed the fact that I am a terribly shy person!
The way that I ran away from his presence soo fast or the way I blushed like a fool in his hands before.

In his hands......

I don't know why but even tho I blushed then, and was exited of the situation, I felt very natural and released in his arms, when I fell on his knees.

Like no one threats me.
Like he is protecting me.
Like I'm safe.

Even tho, when I looked straight at his eyes, I tried to analyse the situation in the beginning, but then
I met that comforting blue in his eyes, full of those small sparkles that looked like stars in a once in a year,
clear- clear nights, that you can actually see thoes cool, stardust planets shining above you.
And I fell into them in this wird feeling of belonging and attraction.....
I almost not able to actually recognise what was in there, but it felt soo good and got me soo high that I am still actually surrounded by the energy of the moment or the tingling that I felt where he put his arms on me,
Or the tingling on my lips, almost getting too close.......

No, no,
What am I saying?
He is just a friend that I cured because he needed help.
And I took care of him pretty good, I didn't expected that it he will manage walking even half a step like he did.
Well it took a lot of work ;
Dragging him in the first day I saw him,( look how better he got since then! ) searching thoes medical supplies that I never use for his wounds, cleaning the scars on his body and his chest.......

Oh no!
What am I thinking about?
No!
He is just a good person that crashed next to my palace for a mistake, there is no way that we can possibly think of each other like this,
Especially not me.

I don't want to hurt
and I don't wanna be hurted,
And love is to destroy
and to be loved is to be destroyed.

Just like I thought last evening as I got back to sleep.
Prephering not to see the consequence of my last heartbreak, and got back to bed as fast as I could.
'I need to wash it out, all of it.
Maybe some sleep is just what I need,
but I doubt that.'
I thought yesterday while I put my hands on the pillow, and fell asleep.

I woke up in a snowy filled,
Close to one of the top of one of the mountains.
I started walking, studying the icy wiew the I already used to see.
And over sudden,
I saw him.
Touching the sharp edge of the icicle,
Running his hand upon it, with a furious expression but with elegant moves like he always had.
Tall, with that strange lightning in his black deep eyes, that were always hidden by his thick eyebrows, but cleared with his wide forehead.

-"Hello, Elsa." He said with this passion in his eyes that could be considered as madness if he hadn't use that sweet begging voice, or getting his face soft. "My love."

He ran to me accelerating with every step of the passion strong as an explosion in the flames he always held in him,
Kissing me with all his love, and powerful burning, of the risky combination of, frankness and softness.

Wait a minute........ Burning?

I opened my eyes from that kiss.
There is no daylight only darkness surrounding me like the heavy smoke,
coming from the fire he is in with the same broken, tourchered, tearful face he had in that exsact moment months ago.