Everyday I have to wonder
Why you choose to stay by my side
What do you see in me that made you feel this way
My scars
All of my fears
How much I worry
My awkwardness
How is that anything like what you want
Sure our past and our pain brought us together
It put us at the same level
I am sick of pretending that your not my everything
That without you life would go on
Because it's all a lie
If I lost you it would be like losing myself
The tiny moments that we have together I cherish with all I have
I think about you every waking moment
I dream about you every night
Even when things go wrong I keep hope that your still be there
When I stare up at the sky
Late at night because I can't sleep
I'm comforted by the thought of you staring at that same dark sky
Wishing that I was there by your side
I long to see you
To hold you
To hear your voice
No over the telephone
Pictures never count
I want to be there with you
Not here by myself
These promises that you and I have made
They scare me
What if I'm not enough
What if I mess everything up
What if you no longer want be by your side
What if this love turns into this hate
I can't stand this constant worrying
This always looking over my shoulder The giant shadow looming over me telling me that it's all lies
I have nightmares where when I wake tears are streaming down my face
And I curl into a ball
Feeling so completely empty
I'm scared that when I truly give myself up
Like I already have to you
That I'll be burned
And left on my own again
I'm scared
YOU ARE READING
The Hauntings of My Mind
RandomSo this is my book of poetry. it starts off with a few of my really old poems but I promise you they get better. sorry if the poems are a little depressed or kinda sad, when I write I put my emotions into it and usually I write best when I'm upset...
