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There was only one sleep left until Noah and I would be reunited and I was running around trying to make sure everything in the apartment was clean and organized. The fridge was stocked with plenty of stuff so I could cook for him and we didn't have to leave the house. Laundry was done, drawers were cleared out for his things...he was so close I could just feel him in my grip. I knew at this time he would be on his way to the airport with the guys. I was ecstatic.
Ryan had tried to inbox me and message me a few times since we fell out, but I had just left him on read trying to wait for everything to blow over. At first I felt bad about cutting ties, but then he kept digging his own grave with the harassing messages he continued to send me. One minute he was sad, the next he was angry and telling me off. Noah didn't want me to read the message he had left for him, but I was finally able to after a ton of coaxing and pleading.
Ryan started off by telling Noah he was using me and he was a 'piece of shit'.He even went so far as to tell him that he and I were meant to be and that he has been interfering for the last four years. He even told Noah he has me brainwashed!
I couldn't believe what I read and I eventually had to admit that Noah was right. All these years he was convinced Ryan wanted me, but I was naive and mistook his friendliness for friendship. He was actually showing his true colors now, and what a disappointment his real personality was.
It had finally been about three days since Ryan reached out and I was assuming he was finally trying to let this all go. I went on my Instagram just to keep myself in the loop of things.
It was the normal stuff.
Tattoos, funny memes, Bad Omens fan photos and concert footage...
All of a sudden I got a notification. I had a new message and my stomach dropped seeing it was Ryan.
Oh boy...here we go.
I never thought it was going to come to this, but I was finally just ready to block him. Noah would be home tomorrow and I just wanted to focus on mending our relationship.
I opened the message just so I could clear the notification before I went to block him for good. I noticed he simply just sent me a link with a few crying laughing emojis. A small part of me thought it might be spam, but for some reason I was more than curious. I clicked on the link.
It was a post from a Motionless in White fan page and it was photographs of Ryan and I the day before the boudoir photoshoot. A fan took the photos of us while we were hanging out, grabbing something to eat. Although Noah had always told me that you can't believe the things you read online, these photos looked very misleading. Ryan and I were sitting closely but the angles of these pictures made us look rather intimate. We were laughing in one of them and in another, I was looking down and Ryan was adoringly staring at me... my stomach flopped. It looked so wrong.
