Daniel Howell Imagines

I Never Thought We'd Have A Last Kiss

Word Count: 811 words

"Your name, forever the name on my lips"

I'm sitting here alone in my room, constantly thinking back to everything Dan and I had. The times we would just lay in bed awake at like 1:58am. How his chocolate brown eyes could be seen, even in the darkest of places. The words he whispered for just us to know, then before i would start drifting off to sleep, he would whisper three simple words into my ear "I love you" and that just seemed to be everything.

I remember this one time, It was July 9th, I just got back from vacation with my family in New Zealand and he was there to pick me up from the airport. It was raining, it had just started raining. I ran off the plane to run into his open arms that I had missed for several weeks. The scent of old spice and mint on his clothes, made me feel like i was at home. His arms around me, made me feel even more at home. The beat of his heart jumped through his shirt, I knew he was finally happy to have me back with him

Now here I am, sitting on the floor in my room, wearing his clothes. I don't know how to be something he misses. But i miss him more than anything. He was my main source of happiness, hes what kept me going. I can still feel his arms around me. i never thought we'd last kiss, i could never imagine the ending quite like how it ended. He told me he loved me, so why did he go away? Why did he leave? I thought you didn't hurt those you loved?

The smell of his cologne is still on this shirt that i'm wearing of his, I inhale it deep into my lungs as his scent sends me off into a high. Damn, i miss him so damn much.

I remember the spring and swing in his step. Dan definitely was the life of the party, despite how awkward he was. He would always show off, goddammit he was such a show off. I would always roll my eyes at him, and i would do it so he could see me doing it, and then he would always grab my waist and pull me into his loving embrace, I'm not much for dancing, but for him, I would.

I loved everything about him, absolutely everything. I loved how he would always walk with his hands in his pockets, and i loved his handshake when he met my father. How he would kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something.

Like this one time, we were bickering about what movie to watch on movie night. I wanted to watch The Notebook and he insisted on watching Captain America. I kept on going on and on and on about how we've seen Captain America so many times, and how we've hardly watched The Notebook, and everytime id make a point, he would interrupt me with a kiss.

Although it was a rude interruption, there's not a day that goes by where i don't miss them

But the fact that he's famous is difficult, i can't get away from him. Everytime that i think i'm moving on, his face ends up on the cover of a magazine, or in the newspaper, or hes all over social media.

So I guess ill have to watch his life, and how he's doing in pictures, the same way i used to watch him sleep. I feel as if he'd forget me like i used to feel him breathe. I'll keep up with our old friends and ask them how he is, where he is and what he's doing. I hope it nice where he is, I hope the sun shines, and it's always a beautiful day.

I hope something reminds him of me, and how he might have regretted leaving me. I wonder if he wishes that he had stayed. I know he broke up with me for my own protection, so I wouldn't get hurt, but i did get hurt. We can plan for a change in the weather and time, but i never planned on him changing his mind, especially when he said that he'd never leave me, that hed only leave me if i wanted him to go.

So, I'm still sitting here on the floor, wearing his clothes. Letting these flashbacks and memories captivate my mind.

I just- I never thought we'd ever last kiss

A/N this is so bad omfg. Soz guys, I wrote this back in November last year after experiencing a really bad break up. But I would like to know what you thought of it and all of my other stuff. Feedback is much appreciated ☺️