my girl.. (BWWM-INTERRACIAL)

chapter 6

Chapter 6

Wednesday october 28th, 2015

It was obvious she wasn't in the mood today. I could see the red in her eyes meaning she cried last night. She looked so tired. Her hair was in a curly messy bun and she was wearing sweatpants and a sweater with slides on. She had on no make up what so ever but her glasses kinda hide that. Sure she still looked beautiful, but she still looked so miserable at the same time.

We were in class and she wasn't even paying attention, I was so worried, scared even. What happened last night that had an effect on her like this? I hate seeing her like this. I looked at her and she was staring ahead. She looked angry but i knew she wasnt. "Jordan what's the answer for number 7" the teacher called her. Jordan's eyes landed on the teacher "2" she said with no emotion then looking out of the window. The teacher nodded a little skeptically "yeah" she said. The period ended and Jordan stood up walking right out of the door. I looked at the boys and they looked at me. I walked out of the classroom in search for her. But she was gone. Just like that.
Jordan's POV
Tuesday the 27th (flashback)

I was at home, alone. I just came home from school and I had already finished my homework. I knew today was gonna be a bad day, just like any other day. Today felt a little different though. I walked upstairs to my bed room and looked at the calendar on my wall. I gasped, how could I forget about that! I ran down the stairs and grabbed my keys on the way out. I got in my car and drove to the cemetery.

I sat in front of his grave. My god father's. Today is the day I sat with him on his hospital bed as he waited for his death. He always watched me since I was first born. He died about 4 years ago but it'll be five tomorrow. When he died, my happiness died with him. Everything changed when he died. My parents left, my siblings went to college and left the house. I wasn't happy, I don't get excited. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I was always home alone so I grew independent. I fend for myself the only thing I don't pay for in that house is the bills, every thing else is mine. This started when I was 14. My god father, Alexander the 2nd, was the nicest man on the planet but when it came to me he was very protective. I can say all I want that I don't need any one, but sometimes everyone needs someone to hug, or talk to, or laugh with. I just don't have that person anymore. I looked at a picture of him I put on his grave. Tears started streaming down my face "I swear you are the only person I cry for now pa" I said laughing wiping my face. I stared at the picture for a while before standing up placing a new black rose down bedside the other dead ones. More tears started coming down my face and I quickly walked out of the cemetery. And jumped in my car. I put my head on the steering wheel and let the sobs escape my mouth. I heard an alarm ring on my phone I picked it up and read "pa's day" I looked at the time 4:14 am. I threw my phone in the back of my car and started bawling. I punched my steering wheel hundreds of times "why, why, why, why" I said to myself repeatedly and crying again "I miss you so much pa",I said my lip trembling. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in and pulled out of place and went home, the tears Still staining my face.
Wednesday, the 28th (still Jordan's POV)
I walked out of the classroom as fast as I could. My heart was heavy and I was hurting a lot today. I'm happy its Lunch now though. I sat at my table and pulled out my phone turning on a happy song while everyone was coming to my table. "Are you okay Jordan?" Savannah asked me. She's this girl who I guess is my friend, but id rather say acquaintance. I don't wanna get close to any body at this school. To many have left my life and I don't need any more disappointments, this is why I chose to be by myself. "yeah I'm just sleepy" I said then pulling one of my famous fake smiles. "Oh well make sure you get some sleep and text me after school" I nodded. Knowing I actually wasn't gonna text her, nor go to sleep. I heard someone clear their throats and I looked at Kendall standing at my table "what do you want?"I asked her "for you to leave Cameron alone bitch" she said "Oo Jesus who is she talking to?" I said "today is not the day Kendall" she put on a fake frowny face " awe who pissed in your Cheerios today" she said and her little friends laughed "the lord is testing me right now. kendall get the fuck out of my face. I swear to god I will punch you" I told her cleaning my fist. Oo Jesus help me. A crowd was starting to form around us "oh Jordan you wouldn't touch me. Especially on a day like this" I froze in my tracks. She knew I knew what she was talking about. " i'm giving you five seconds Kendall" I whispered leaning against the table. I was so angry "FIVE" I counted down "he didn't love you, you are such a waste-" she started "FOUR" "he is happy he's dead now" "THREE" I could feel my blood pressure going high "I know I'm happy he is" "TWO" "now all we need is you gone" "one" I launched at her hitting her in the face repeatedly. I was so ready to choke her but someone grabbed me by waist and picked me up "YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A WORTHLESS SLUT! NO ONE HERE LIKES YOU BUT THEY SURE DO LIKE YOUR LOOSE ASS VAGINA!" I shouted while getting carried away by Cameron he sat me down and looked me in my eyes then hugged me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and stood on my tip toes since I was so much smaller than him I closed my eyes and breathed his smell in. "I'm sorry" I said squeezing him tighter. He didn't say anything "I'm gonna be in so much trouble" I told him with a chuckle. I was talking about trouble with the principle, my parents could care less what I was doing. "You will be fine" he said. I released him just in time because the principal came. He took me to the office and I immediately put on victim face "Mr.Williams this is what happened. I wasn't feeling good emotional and physically the last two days and then Kendall comes to my lunch table harassing me and making fun of my family and saying I should be dead so I kinda lost control of my self. I am so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt her or anything I will apologize" I told him he let out a sigh "I wasn't gonna come to school tomorrow anyways I think her and I both need a break" he let out a sigh "I suppose, but miss jordan this is so unexpected of you. I don't want any of this behavior ever again" he told me sternly "and yes, do not come to school tomorrow" he said I nodded and stood up "and I suggest you leave now to" he said. I officially left the office. I'm not apologizing to anybody. Kendall better watch out now. I went to my locker and grabbed my bag and my keys and I left school