HYPNOTIC ✗ rucas

3.1; "The love we deserve."

R I L E Y

The uncontrollable pain kept flowing through my mind, my heart, my blood. I was breathing it in, breathing it back out and back in. I felt like I was constantly suffocating.

It's been two weeks since my encounter with Lucas, and I've been like this everyday since then. I felt like I was being swallowed into a huge, black endless hole of suffering. Something I never wanted to face again, but reluctantly, knew would happen again sometime.

I just didn't think he would ever come back,

but he did.

But, why? Is the question. If he came back for me, that would be a lie. Because he would have came back sooner if he actually cared.

Suddenly, I heard a tap against my bay window, making me instinctively jump in fright. I turned my head, to see Maya smiling at me. I knew what today was, and I didn't want to face it.

Summer break was officially over, and today was my first day of my Sophomore year. Time truly flies, It just feels like yesterday I fell beside a blue eyed girl on the subway and we became friends.

I unlocked my bay window, as Maya climbed in.

"How are you?" She asked, almost immediately. I shrugged my shoulders. I wasn't well, clearly. I thought I built my walls strong and high enough, but apparently not. I had told Maya about everything which is why she was asking.

"I don't know." I said in honesty. She gave me a sad smile. I leaned over, laying my head on her lap as I chewed on my bottom lip. "Why does it have to hurt so bad?" I asked, trying to hold back my tears, which is something I've so strongly learned to do. If I didn't want to cry, I wouldn't. Two weeks ago was an exception.

Maya stroked my hair. "I don't know, peaches. But what I do know is that you're strong, and you have built yourself up so high that if you don't want to feel like this, then don't. You're in control. I believe in you and I know that you can get through this. Don't let this tear you down." Maya spoke in an inspiring tone.

I slightly smiled.

She was right, I've worked too hard for my own happiness,

I'm not going to let life throw me down now.

I won't let it.

"You're right." I said, before hesitantly sitting up. "I'm not just going to sit here and cry before my first day of school, of being a Sophomore. I've taught myself better than that.." I said, before looking outside of my window.

"You have. Now come on, lets go and face our first day together again." Maya said, as I let out a light chuckle. Life has literally changed so much in the past year, it's really crazy.

I had already been ready for the past hour, but I had been mindlessly sitting at my window, thinking, wondering. I guess being an early riser sometimes can be a good thing.

Me and Maya linked arms, before I forced a smile.

Try not to let it drag you down, Riles.

You can do this.

I mean it's not like the boy you loved just came back after disappearing for 7 months, just oh so casually throw it off your shoulder.

>>>>>>>>>

Me and Maya now stood in front of John Quincy Adams High, looking at the place as if we were lost puppies on the first day again. So many people had changed over the summer, some people were barely unrecognizable.