Holding on to you

School isn't just for learning

HI GUYS!!!!! HERE IS YOUR CHAPTER I PROMISED YOU, I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. SORRY IT'S SO LATE, I KNOW IT SATURDAY IN ENGLAND BUT IT'S STILL FRIDAY SOMEWHERE OUT THERE.

ENJOY READING MY LITTLE KILLERS!!!

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Chapter 3

"What the hell was that all about, Lil?"

I was waiting in the lunch line in the cafeteria to purchase my lunch when Jason came up behind me and dragged me away.

God! What the hell is with guys and dragging me?!

When we were back in the empty school hall I yanked my hand away from him. I'm sick of being treated like I'm some toy for everyone to play with, and since it was impossible to fight against Killian I decided to rebel against Jason.

"Firstly, I don't know what you're talking about, and secondly, let go of my hand you're hurting me!"

I rubbed the spot that was still stinging a little and glared at him. I know I wasn't really upset with him, but my anger needed an outlet and he was it.

Jason glared at me right back, his body was held stiff and he was clenching and unclenching his jaw.

Why in the name of the blue balls monkey was he angry?

I didn't get it. I'm the one who was dragged away from getting food to feed my tummy monsters and I know that if I don't feel them soon they will probably eat me.

"Why the hell did you sit next to Killer? And why didn't you leave the class like the rest of us? What the hell were you doing in there until lunch?"

I felt guilty because I couldn't answer any of his questions, he deserved answers but I just couldn't tell him. It's not like Killian would care if I tell anyone because according to him it's just sex, but my friends know that I'm not the type of girl who goes around sleeping with guys. And Jason would be heartbroken if he ever found out the truth, it already pains me to see him moping around the school looking like a lost puppy.

I know he loves me and I'd be fooling myself if I said that I didn't love him back. Every day I think about what we had and would have had if I didn't make that deal with Killian.

Jason and I were an item since the day our moms met each other when we were both seven. We started out as close friends then it was only natural that we'd fall hopelessly in love with each other. We always did everything together, we were never too far from each other, so you can understand my surprise when Jason told me that he thought we should have a break from our relationship.

I remember being really upset that I couldn't even eat or sleep for three weeks, and when I asked him why he was breaking up with me, he said that we spend some much time together that we never gave ourselves a chance to see what we are apart.

I didn't understand it because I knew what I would be like without him, and that's heartbroken and in pain. It took me a while and a lot of help from Jessy for me to get over not being able to kiss him when I want or looking forward to my weekly piggy back ride that he used to give me.

I went three months missing him every day and I could have seen that he missed me too, it was evident in the way he looked at me with longing in his eyes. But he was too stubborn to admit that we needed each other, so instead he held out for as long as he could, and when he finally came to his senses and called me, I was ecstatic.