Holding on to you

Emotional confusion

HI GUYS!!!! OMG! I'M SO, SO, SO SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS WAIT, I HAD A FEW ASSIGNMENTS THAT I HAD TO FINISH FOR COLLEGE, SO WRITING HAD TO BE PUT ASIDE FOR A BIT. BUT NOW I'M BACK!!! I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AND DON'T BE SHY TO TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. 

UNTIL NEXT TIME MY LITTLE KILLERS. XXXXXX

PIC OF THEM IN BED!

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Chapter 31

Killian P.O.V

"What the f**k Killian! You can't just leave her in there like that!"

Kinsley pushed on my chest to get me to move out of the way, but I stood where I was. Folding my arms, I leaned against the door blocking her entrance.

"Stay the f**k out of this, Kinsley!"

My sister was just as stubborn as me, so she ignored the warning in my voice and pushed on my chest once more. I didn't even know why I was upset, but just the thought of Red loving me pissed me off.

I didn't want or need her love and the sooner she realised it the better-off her life would be.

"You're such a heartless bastard, Killian! You don't deserve her; you're turning all of her light into darkness!"

I didn't let her statement get to me, even though I knew that she was right. I knew she was too good for me, but I didn't care because she was mine. And I indeed wanted to darken her soul, just as my own was dark.

Kinsley face showed her anger but is was now mixed with pity and sadness. I frowned and put my guard up, I could damn well do without her pity!

She took a small step closer to me, the anger on her face replacing understanding. Placing her hand on my cheeks, she tapped lightly, a sad smile adorning her face.

"You don't need to live in darkness, Killi, there's no harm in letting a little light into your life. Lilly is your beacon, stop trying to put out her glow."

My entire body froze up; I didn't care too much for her words. She was starting to piss me off and in order to stop myself from doing or saying something that I might regret, I stepped aside.

Kinsley pushed passed me, almost knocking me over. I watched as she rushed into the room then into the bathroom, where you could still hear the rush of water and soft whimpering sounds.

The place where my heart should be squeezed and a remorseful feeling swallowed me up. I frowned because the feeling was alien to me, I've never before felt sorry for anything I've done, so I couldn't understand why I was starting now.

I pushed the feeling aside, refusing to analyse it further, instead, I watched as my sister untied my wife and wrapped her in a white Egyptian towel. She was shaking so hard I could almost hear her bones knocking together, and again that remorseful feeling took over me.

However, this time instead of pushing it aside I let myself feel it. Seeing my girl looking so vulnerable broke something inside of me, and I knew that I was the one who caused it.

"Oh honey, you're freezing and shaking like a leaf. Let's get you warmed up."

Red nodded her head, but with the way she was shaking it was hard to detect. I stood in the middle of the room with my hands in my jeans pocket, not saying a word. Red looked up at me as she passed with Kinsley, but she quickly tucked her head back down again.

Kinsley guided her over to the bed and helped her in, after making sure that the sheet as securely tucked around her, she busied herself with finding her comfortable clothes.