Impractical One Shots - Joker(X)Joker

Butterfly, fly away - VulGatto

You should listen to the song in the header while reading, it really is such a beautiful song.

Joe's PoV

I turned and checked the clock on the bedside table 2:00am, grunting I threw my head back onto the pillow and turned in the bed expecting to see Sal fast asleep beside me, he wasn't there, I sat up and tried to listen to see if I could hear a tv on, he often had trouble sleeping and always resorted to laying on the couch watching late night tv, I didn't hear anything though.

I heard a light noise coming through the baby monitor on the dresser, I was waiting for a cry from our 4month old baby girl, but it never came, then I heard the last thing I ever expected;

"And when I couldn't sleep at night, scared things wouldn't turn out right, you would hold my hand and sing to me"

Was that Sal singing? I slowly slid out of bed and began to make my way down the hallway to the babies nursery to investigate, taking caution not to make a sound. I stopped just short of the door to the babies room and saw a small light, the door was wide open and the baby wasn't in her crib, just as I was about to walk in I saw Sal laying in the nursing chair in the corner of her room with his eyes closed, holding her in his arms as she gargled and made the most adorable little baby noises, throwing her hands and kicking her feet, I stopped at the doorway and watched, As the baby began to fuss Sal continued to sing, holding her closer to his chest and rocking in the chair soothingly;

"Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be, can't go far but you can always dream, wish you may and wish you might, don't you worry, hold on tight, I promise you there will come a day, butterfly fly away"

My heart warmed at the beautiful sight in front of me, the man I loved singing the sweetest of lullabies to our baby girl. My world never felt so complete. I thought back to the day we had decided we wanted to and were ready to be parents;

It was three years into our relationship and a year after our wedding, Sal had woke me up  in the middle of the night and cried, sobbing that he would never be a parent, that no one would ever call him daddy, I held him in my arms and simply said "let's do it" Sal had seemed taken aback at the simplicity of my words, I kissed him and spoke "let's be daddies Sal, we'll get a surrogate , or well adopt, let's have a baby, let's start our family" he just nodded and began to cry whispering how much he loved me over and over till he fell asleep in my arms, the very next day we went down to the adoption agency and began the process, it was a long and difficult process and it was an emotional roller coaster but now here we are and we have a beautiful baby girl

Sal continued to rock in the chair, his eyes closed all the while as he continued to sing to the little wiggly bundle in his arms, the day we brought home Nova, our baby girl, I had never seen Sal any happier, he didn't let her go the whole day, he didn't let her out of his sight at all, he didn't sleep he just watched her, he loved her so completely, and I loved him more for it.

'Turned around and you were there, the two of us made quite a pair, daddy's little girl was here at last, looked away and back again, suddenly a year was ten, don't know how it got so far so fast'

I just stood there in the doorway watching in awe at the sight in front of me, that was my family, I couldn't stop the smile on my face or the feeling in my heart, I watched as the little bundle in Sal's arms began to settle, the noises stopped and all that could be heard was her gentle breathing and the sound of Sal's soft voice singing her to sleep

'And yes dear, you don't understand, It's not anything we planned, kind of makes you think it's meant to be, I always knew the day would come you'd stop crawling, start to run, beautiful as beautiful can be'

I watched in silence as Sal slowly stood up from the nursing chair, holding our daughter close to him, and walked to her crib, he placed a small kiss to her head and set her sleeping form into the crib as he finished the song;

'Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be, can't go far but you can always dream, wish you may and wish you might, don't you worry, hold on tight, I promise you there will come a day, butterfly fly away'

Sal smiled down at the sleeping baby and then turned towards the door, his eyes met mine and I saw heat rising to his cheeks as his goofy smile crept onto his features, it amazes me that after all this time he still blushed for me, he still got nervous, he still felt the same, and I did too, I loved him more with every growing day and seeing him with our daughter only enhanced those feelings.

He walked towards me in the doorway and wrapped his arms around my neck placing a soft kiss to my lips "let's go to bed..daddy" he whispered, I smiled and kissed the tip of his nose, "I'll meet you in there baby" I replied as he walked past me and back to our bedroom. I walked softly into the nursery towards the crib, taking in the beautiful sight of the tiny sleeping baby, watching her chest rise and fall softly as she slept soundly. I had never been so happy or so content in my life. I really was the luckiest guy in the world, the man of my dreams and the most beautiful baby girl in the world.

I had it all.

'Butterfly fly away, got your wings, now you can't stay, take those dreams and make them all come true; Butterfly fly away, You've  been waiting for this day, all along you've known just what to do'