I Love You, But I Lied - Mark Tuan and Got7 Fanfic

Part 31

Mark

Even if I told the guys many times not to do this, they still went out of the way to prepare a small dinner party for my birthday. I guess they just want to cheer me up. They put up decorations and cooked the food on their own - I'm not sure if it's safe to eat, though. They even invited some friends over, Day6 and 15& are here, even Peniel comes. Vic is also here. 

It would've been perfect if she were here....Damn...what am I thinking? That lying girl doesn't deserve my forgiveness. 

"Happy Birhtday, man," Jackson sits beside me after dinner and everybody's on the floor around the booze. He hands me two gifts, one in a bag and another in a small box. 

"Thanks," I nod, not bothering to open the gifts, I put them beside me and get the shot glass. 

"I'm really sorry, Mark. I didn't mean to." 

I nod again, drinking the vodka straight up. I know it's not his fault, but talking to him would just remind me more of her. I stand up and take the empty space between JB and JR. That shuts him up for a while. 

Just when we're about to call it a night, the doorbell goes off. 

"I'll get it," Yugyeom says, having a hard time to stand because of too much alcohol in his system. 

"Ugh...I'll do it." I say. I'm the closest to the door anyway. 

I pull the door slightly ajar and peep outside. My eyes grow bigger and mouth open. Standing in front of me is Jess. Her hair still as straight and black as ever. Her eyes, although they look tired, are still as beautiful as the last time I saw them. Her pink lips slightly parted. 

"Mark!"

I don't know what to do or how to react. My heart tells me to let her in and hug her. I miss her so much and here she is. But my mind, which is a bit stronger at this moment even with the alcohol poisoning it, says I should just shut the door in front of her. 

"What?" I say, not showing any of the emotions struggling to come out from deep inside me. 

"Uhmm...."

"What?" I urge her, with bitterness in my voice. I have to tone down my voice so the people inside wouldn't hear. If they do, they would let Jess in...which I also want to do but don't. 

"Happy Birthday! I just came here to greet you." She stands on her toes and pecks me on the cheek. Before I could react, she runs away into the waiting elevator and she's gone. 

I stand there for a whole five minutes, not knowing what to do. She came all the way here just to greet me. Where does she live anyway? I don't care. Do I? Why does she show up just when I want to forget her? Why does she have to make me confused? After lying to me, does she want to torture me more? 

"Hyung?" Bambam's voice takes me back to my senses. "Who's that?" 

"Huh?" I slowly turn around, still aghast at what just happened. 

"Who was it?" JB asks, standing from the floor and taking the knob from my hand to open the door wider, finding nobody outside. "Hey," he pats my cheek. "You're so pale. Did you just see a ghost?"

"What?" The other people especially the girls started sitting closer to each other. 

Ghost! Yes. She's just a ghost from the past. I nod, "I think."

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Jess