Sinclaire Academy: Untold Stories

The Cursed

The Cursed

"Camilla?"

Pinilit kong buksan ang mga mata ko. Once my gaze connected with the light that seeped through the window sumakit na naman ang ulo ko.

Nagmadali si Mama na isara ang kurtina habang napa ungol ako sa sakit.

Nang bumalik siya tabi ko hinipo niya ang noo ko at bahagyang ngumiti. "Masakit pa rin ba?"

Her smile made me feel a little better. "Hindi na masyado, Ma."

The truth is my whole body is still in pain. My muscles are sore and everytime I move my head aches.

Ayoko namang mag alala siya sa'kin palagi. Kapag sinabi ko ang totoo baka hindi na naman siya pumasok sa trabaho.

Hindi pwede mangyari 'yon dahil kailangan namin ng pera.

I tried not to wince when I sat up. Nginitian ko ulit si Mama.

Halata parin ang pag aalala sa mukha niya. Malungkot siyang ngumiti at hinipo na naman ang ulo ko. "Wala ka nang lagnat. Salamat naman."

Mainit parin ang pakiramdaman ko. Hindi ko nalang binanggit sa kanya. "Oo nga"

Uminom parin ako ng gamot. After a few minutes na convince na rin si Mama na kaya ko na mag isa. Umalis siya ng maraming bilin sa'kin. Nakinig nalang ako tumango.

My moves were natural yet slow when I got out of bed. Pwede kong maitago ang sakit by not wincing or reacting at all but I can't hide my complexion.

Hinawakan ko ang salamin sa bathroom. Kailan kaya ulit ako magkakakulay?

Ang dati kong mapupulang labi looks so pale now. Even my skin. Ang tanging nagbibigay kulay nalang sa pagkatao ko ngayon ay ang mga mata ko.

Mama could never pin point what the real color of my eyes. Neither can I. Most of the time it looks hazel but when the light gazes upon it golden specs of hues appear.

The once vibrant windows of my soul turned cold and impassive.

Hindi naman ako sakitin noon. Nagsimula lang ito noong mag trese anyos ako.

Halos pabalik balik nalang kami ni Mama sa hospital pero walang naka tukoy kung ano talaga ang sakit ko. I told Mama to stop trying dahil sumuko na rin ako. Mauubusan lang kami ng pera.

Bumubuti naman ng konti ang lagay ko sa mga gamot na binibigay sa'kin but still, my body is slowly giving up on me.

May mga pagkakataong hindi talaga ako maka tayo ng kama dahil sobrang sakit ng likod ko. Sometimes I'd black out because of my migraines the I'd wake up like nothing happened.

I accepted my faith already. If I'm going to die then why won't Death just hurry up and take me? Nahihirapan lang ako at lalo na si Mama.

Mama thinks whenever I black out hindi na ako magigising ulit. Iyon rin ang iniisip ko whenever life is drilling in my head. Pero wala eh, nagigising parin ako. It's like the world wants me to suffer.

Stop mocking me universe, will you?

Due to my situation napag desisyonan ni Mama na i-home school muna ako hangga't hindi pa bumubuti ang lagay ko. I don't know if I'm going to recover at all but I don't want to crush her hopes so I'll at least try to pretend I'm better.

Natulog ako ulit because my head is killing me again.

Nang magising ako, umuulan na. The rain somehow made me feel better kaya nagawa kong kumain.

I went back to my room after and sat by my nook gazing out at the drizzle outside.

I've been stuck at home eversince I got sick. My body couldn't take what the outside world has in stored. Mama wants me to go out kahit na sa garden lang minsan para naman maarawan ako but the sunlight only hurts my head.

I spend my days thinking about my condition and reading. And this day is not different like the others.

Mama brings home second hand books to keep me entertained kahit papaano at sa kababasa ko ng mga iyon I came up to a conclusion that I am somehow cursed.

Bakit cursed? Sino naman ang susumpa sa'kin?

Good question. If medicine or kahit ano pang sugo ng science ay hindi umiipekto sa'kin then there must be wrong with little ole human me. And last time I checked I can't be anything other than human dahil sigurado akong anak ako ng nanay ko. Even though I haven't seen my Dad for a long time I'm pretty sure he's human too.

Hindi ko alam kung sino ang pwedeng sumumpa sa'kin since I don't know any witches around here at mabait naman akong bata. Witches and Warlocks can't live here since Perses is for humans only.

Sharp pain started shooting from my back again. I doubled over, shrieking in pain.

I would sometimes feel pain on my back as if something is clawing it's way out. Sobrang sakit nito.

The moment I black out nawawala rin ang sakit but it was like my body is fighting this time.

It took me a few minutes to calm down but the pain is still there. Hindi ako umalis sa kinauupuan ko para hindi ko matawagan si Mama. If I call her now she'll rush home and she might get in trouble with her boss. She can't lose another job because of me.

Unti-unting tumulo ang mga luha ko.

I just laid in my nook hoping for the pain to stop. Wishing for this damn curse to go away.