Formula One Os - Driver x Driver [Requests CLOSED]

Lansteban- Dying to try

Hey !! I'm not at home currently, but I wrote this one a while ago and felt like publishing like now 😁 Hope you'll like it !!         

    
"Good job mate !" Said Max, patting Lance's back.

"Thanks bro, I hope you'll have more luck for the next Grand Prix." He replied.

"Yeah, I hope too." Max saw Daniel waving at him. "Oh, I think Dan is calling me. See you !"

"See you !"

Take a leap of faith with me
If you believe honestly
That I am yours and you are mine
I know you're scared, and so am I

Lance watched Max going through the crowd. He looked around the room to see who was there and his  eyes met Esteban's. When Esteban noticed him, a small smile appeared on his lips. Lance blushed a little and looked away. 

Since a few weeks, Lance had felt a change in his feelings. He didn't know exactly what it was, not why and when it happened. But he didn't want to be just friend with Esteban, he wanted more. He somehow knew it wasn't reciprocal. It hurt him but it was for the best. He didn't want to ruin his friendship by unveiling his feelings, which he didn't even understand. His feelings were growing up, were more and more difficult to hide from Esteban. But he had to keep it inside and pretend that everything was okay.

Lance couldn't stop looking at Esteban, glancing at him when he was looking away. He admired his ease when he met someone, his way of moving on the dance floor...He tried several time to stop it but he couldn't help. He always felt jealous when Esteban was close to someone else. When he saw this girl, who seemed interested by his friend, he couldn't help but be jealous. The girl was probably asking  Esteban to dance with her. And without surprise Esteban accepted and followed her on the dance floor, still holding his glass. She began to move around him, she danced pretty close to Esteban and it didn't seem to disturb him. On the contrary, he seemed to really enjoyed it.  Lance looked away. 

'Cause I know that love can be so strong
And yet so frail
And there ain't no guarantee
That you and me won't fail

He saw that almost all the pilots were having fun with some girls. But he was still alone. Lance was standing away from the dancers but he could still see Esteban, the girl was about to kiss him. Lance just couldn't see that, it was too much for him. He felt his eyes watering. He wanted to scream, he wanted to confess everything. But he couldn't. The only thing he could do was to walk away. He turned around. When he arrived at the door, he turned away one last time and he saw Esteban looking at him. This time, he didn't smile. He left the room without another look.

Now alone, he thought back to the first time he had felt that something was changing. 

It was during Spain Grand Prix, they went to a bar together and they talked all night. Lance was drunk so the memories weren't that clear. He remembered that Esteban stayed with him all night. He had helped him changing his clothes. He really took care of him. There was one thing he remembered. But he didn't know if it really happened or if it was just his imagination. When he closed his eyes, before falling asleep, he thought he heard Esteban saying something. He couldn't remember what he had say. But one word came to his mind every time he remembered this night : "love".

But I'm dying to try, I'm dying to try
I'll keep you safe in my arms
Build a bridge to your heart every day

He didn't know if Esteban said it or if he thought about that but it was still there. When he woke up on the next morning, Esteban was still there, sleeping next to him, dressed up. The smile on his face when he woke up was engraved on Lance's mind. They never talked of that night again. Lance wanted to ask Esteban about that word. But he never found the opportunity and since Esteban never talked about that, he felt like it would only make things worst.