Lost Stars

Chapter 42 | Taking Chances

Chapter 43 | Taking Chances

"You put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home."
-Christina Perri, Arms

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Sandrew's Pov

Hindi ko alam kung tama ba 'tong gagawin ko. But I wouldn't know what will be the out come if I wouldn't try or If I just waste my ass out there, killing myself with my stupid emotions. Pinag isipan kong mabuti 'yung sinabi ni Ace. But do I really wanted to do this? Ewan.

I swallow the lump that was forming on my throat, as I entered the campus. Dahil hindi ako naka uniform, pinakita ko pa sa guard na nasa entrance 'yung ID ko, bago maka pasok sa loob and made my way to faculty room of senior high school, philosophy teachers.

As I walk in the hallway, some of the students pass me by greeted me, some asking where I have been and shit. All of them had been ignored. I'm too anxious to entertain their nosey ass right now.

"Sandrew!" Someone shouted from my behind. Tumigil ako sa pag lalakad, turning around to see who called me. Trinity was running towards my way. She almost tripped when she stopped in front of him, good thing I held her by the arm to still her.

This is some deja vu feeling. Na aalala ko nung una kaming nag kita on that first day. Almost three months ago. Ang bilis nga naman ng araw.

Inalis ko 'yung kamay ko sa braso ni Trinity and cleared my throat. She pursed her lower lips, tucking a hair behind her left ear.

"Uh...hi." Awkward niyang sabi. Mag iisang linggo na din pala nung huli kaming nag kita.

"Hey." Pag bati kong pa balik, rubbing my nape. After our little shading at each other that night at the Breeze's rest house, ngayon na lang ulit kami nag sabi ng salita sa isa't-isa.

"Ito nga pala, ginawan kita ng reviewer kasi next week na 'yung exam natin. Peace offering ko na din. I'm sorry kung iba dating sa'yo nung na sabi ko sa inyo ni Ace nung nakaraan. I'm sure you guys have your reasons why you used that, right? But I know you're not a bad person. That's the truth." She nervously said, handing me a purple colored catleya note. I smiled at her, saka ko kinuha 'yung catleya note.

"Thank you for this." Sabi ko, showing the catleya note. "At 'wag mo na isipin 'yun, it's fine, we're used to it because we get that a lot. Beside I'm dealing with a lot of shit lately para isipin pa 'yun."

She pursed her lips and nodded. "Kaya ka ba ilang araw absent?"

"Yeah. Talk to you about it later okay? I'm sure may klase ka pa."

"No, no it's okay you don't have too." Pag tanggi niya, smiling a little. "Sige, una na ako."

I just nodded and we both turned to walk away, pero tinawag ako ulit ni Trinity, kaya lumingon ako.

"I'll see you on Monday?"

"Of course." Sagot ko. She grinned at me waving, before jogging off. Bumalik na din ako sa pag lalakad, holding the catleya note Trinity gave me.

Finally, na sa tapat na ako ng pintuan ng faculty room ng grade eleven philosophy teachers. My heart was beating rapidly against my chest and I feel like throwing up. I've never been this nervous in my life. Huminga ako ng malalim to calm down my nerves. I've been through a lot of things, and this is just me talking to my...mom. That sound weird. You can do this Sandrew.

Kumatok ako and seconds later, bumukas 'yung pinto. It's not miss Kate who opened the door but one of the teachers.

"Can I help you?" Taas kilay niyang tanong. Bitch.