Oblivion (Jungkook X Rosè)

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- Jungkook

"Chaeyoung-a? Where are you?"
         My eyes are still stuck on her while she's trying to scan the voice of the person that called her from somewhere.

"Chaeyoung?"
         The voice got louder...
And steps on the small set of stairs were heard.

She was about to turn her back and way out but even before she move her shoulder, I gripped on her once again.

She gave me a begging eyes...
Teary eyes, to be exact.

"Jungkook."
         And that moment she uttered my name with shaky voice, I gave up and loosened my grip on her.

She took few more milliseconds before walking out of her door.

"Chanyeol?"
         And called the person looking for her.

"What are you doing here? What about Jisoo eonnie, Jennie eonnie and Lisa?"
          I can hear them, she left the door ajar.

"They are fine already, I just rushed here to know if you're fine."
         That sounds like he doubt me.

"I'm fine."
       She answered.

"Jungkook, where is he?"
         He asked.

"He went off already."
        With no sound of hesitation, she answered.

"Ahh, okay."
       Chanyeol bought the lie.

And I stayed here...
Standing right behind the door, listening to them.
They are just at the hallway yet...

"I will take a rest already, Chan, you should go too, it's late."
        For about one fourth of the minute with silence, she suddenly uttered.

I heard her foot took a step but was halted when...

"Chaey..."
        He called him once again.

I felt anxious that moment...
The sound of his voice was warm and comforting.
Sounds like yhere's something he wanted to say that I don't want to hear.

"Mm?"
       She hummed in response.

"You haven't moved on from him yet, have you?"
        He asked....

The tone was low but since the are just standing right next to the wall near the door, I still can hear them properly.

She took half of the minute before answer...
I can imaging her looking down at the ground.

I knew it.
The question is about us, about me.
He knows about me, the situation that me and she had before.

"Why are you asking?"
        She asked back.
Voice is serious yet hoarse.

I heard him inhaling deeply.

"I...I just wanted to know."
         He answered, seems like a lie.

"Yeah, I still haven't...but I will...I just need more time."
          Her answer broke me, broke the left whole.piece of me.

She is trying to refuse me already...
Even after telling me the truth about our past.

"Don't worry. I'm fine, Chanyeol. Things will be fine, for now, we should focus on nothing but ourselves."
          She suggested...

But the next words coming out from him shook me and probably her...

"But I want to focus on you."
          No one is dumb not to know the meaning of it.

Seconds...
Couple of seconds had passed before she had answered...

"What?"
         Yet instead of asking, she asked in confusion.

"Chaeyoung..."
        I heard his steps getting closer.

"We have known each other for so long and I have been keeping this ever since we started talking as friends..."
        This is the things I want to refuse on hearing but it feels like I need to hear.

"I like you. I love you."
        I can sense the confusion from her, and I can sense the determination from him.

"But I let you and didn't say a word because I know you love Jungkook. And that the two of you became official, I gave up, but now..."
       His voice is soft, words are consoling...

"Things had changed. I waited for another year to confess this, I should have before but I gave you time without telling you because I know you're still not ready but seeing you still being devastated about him, about the past, about everything..."
       He is cooing her sincerely...

"I feel like I need to enter your life and help you get out of the past."
        That's when I lost it...

My eyes shut...
Tears began to form...
Kings getting heavy...
Air being thinner...
My fist clenched.

"It's breaking you too much."
         He added...

"To the point that you're already gave up your own happiness without even noticing it."
        He continued...

And I bit my lower lip as I heard her sobbing already.

"You seeing him with someone else. Passing by each other without him recognizing you. Him without any clue about you. He may remember you, but what's the sense of it? He already have someone and that breaks you more."
       My brows furrowed, eyes are still closed, teeth gritting tightly, jaw clenching.

"Chaeyoung..."
         He called her...

"Give me a chance, I'll help you."
         He wished...

"Please."
         He pleaded.

Yet all I heard from her was sobs, whimpers, cry.

"I won't force you to answer now, but think about it."
          Those are the mast words he uttered.

And her sobs got a little louder but it sounded like her face is buried on his chest.

"Giving up....
Giving up with someone else."

I thought...
My head bowed down...
My lips quiver, my breathe is shaking...

"Is it what you're going to do?"

I questioned internally...

"Neglect me trying to take you back and accept the new man trying to enter your life telling that he'll help you?"

My eyed stuck on the door...

Imagining that she is in front of me...

"Please..."

"Don't."