𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘆𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗱𝗼𝗹𝗮𝗻

Living a lie

People say live a life you'll remember, be truthful but would hurt as much if I said my life is a complete lie. A lie to myself a lie to everyone I know including my love. My love Grayson Dolan. How could you tell him that the love of his life is a broken mess exactly you can't so why tell him at all. Standing in that bathroom, door locked shower running and you standing there in the mirror just looking at your broken mess of a self. Disgusted with the site in the mirror you look away. "Just do it" you thought. You did it not regretting it one bit. You cut deeper making sure there was blood you came crashing to the cold bathroom floor but not feeling one bit of the coldness after all you didn't even feel yourself anymore. A soft knock came from the bathroom door you stayed silent a louder knock followed and his soft voice spoke

"Baby you've been in the shower a long time now are you ok?" He asked 

Nothing.

"Baby" he knocked again

Silence. 

"Baby open the door" he said trying the door handle it was locked.

"Please answer me" his worried voice said "I'm coming in"

The door started to shake as well as the bathroom but you just laid there back propped against the bath tub as you stared across the room. The door of the bathroom flew open to reveal a flustered Grayson but once he saw you his heart shattered he dove to your side and grabbed your limp body.

"Y/n!! Baby why did you do this!!!" He yelled 

No reply

You continued to stare across the room. He pulled of his shirt ripping a piece of the shirt of. He wrapped the cloth around your left arm and pulled you into his arms and picked you up. He ran out of the bathroom and bedroom with you 

"Your gonna be ok, your gonna be ok" he repeated 

"ETHAN!" He yelled as he walked down the stairs with you a tired looking Ethan walked out of his room 

"Yh" his voice slurred but once he saw you his eyes widened and his tiredness melted away as he ran down the stairs to the both of you 

"Start the car!" Gray yelled ethan nodded and dashed to his jeep he opened the backdoor as gray stepped inside with you he shut the door as Ethan ran to the drivers seat and threw the car in drive and booked it down the streets of LA 

"Ethan go faster she loosing too much blood!" He yelled Ethan stepped on the gas as your vision blurred 

"No no! Y/n baby talk to me speak to me!" His voice cracked as your wrist continued to bleed as your vision continued to blur.

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I woke up in a white room, a hospital you looked around but your eyes landed on Grayson who was currently holding your hand and resting his head on you thigh with he's eyes closed as tears fell

"Why did you do that? Baby why? You could've talked to me you need to tell me if your in pain baby" he sobbed you squeezed his hand causing his head to jolt up and look at you 

" oh thank god" he cried as his arms wrapped around you, you  hugged back but broke it examining your now bandaged arm you sighed but he placed his hand over it you looked up at him and started to cry 

"I'm sorry" you sobbed he just hugged you once again 

"Shh shh it's ok" he rubbed your head 

He slid into Your hospital bed with you and cuddled you for a while 

"Baby?" He said

You lifted your head up 

"Yh" you smiled 

" can you promise me that you'll never try to Do that again" he said softly you sighed before saying 

"I promise"

I'm so sorry if this triggered anyone and if anyone is going through this please stop and talk to some one ❤️ 

I know this was depressing as hell but I promise the next one will be happier 😊

Your worth it everyone loves you ❤️

Stay beautiful 

PEACE! ✌🏻