𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘆𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗱𝗼𝗹𝗮𝗻

They hate me

The water ran down my face, soaking my shirt. The sobs escaped my lips as I choked on my tears, feeling every sense of worth leave my body. There words began to scare me, suffocate me and break my soul. I clutched my phone and stared at the screen, scrolling through the tweets, feeling my body begin to crumble and fall apart. Tweet after tweet, words after words they wouldn't stop. My mascara ran down, my concealer washed off, my tears slid down my face as my legs clutched my chest. 

Rustling was heard outside the bedroom door as well as laughs, the door opened 

"Y/n the funniest thing just ha- oh my god are you okay?" Grayson spoke both of them rushing over to me, concern written all over them 

I didn't say anything, I just continued to cry 

"Y/n what's wrong?" Ethan asked 

"Noooo" I sobbed 

"What happened"  

"Y/n" 

"Talk to us" 

"Are you okay?" 

"Calm down" 

"You need to breathe" 

"Tell us what's wrong" 

They tried to get me to talk 

I dropped my phone on the floor 

Ethan picked it up as Grayson hugged me 

"Oh my god" Ethan whispered as I could see him scroll 

"Gray" he mumbled 

He showed gray the phone 

"Oh y/n" he said sympathetically 

Now they were both hugging me as I continued to sob and cry 

"I don't wanna live anymore" I wept on Ethan's chest 

"Y/n" Grayson's voice cracked 

"It hurts so much" 

"I'm so sorry" Ethan whispered "I'm so sorry" 

"They're so horrible, I don't want to be here" 

"Y/n" Grayson said I pulled my head out of Ethan's chest and looked at him 

He cupped my face "You are the best thing that has ever happened to us, okay? So don't you dare say that, we would be nowhere without you"

"They hate me" I continued to sob

"I know and we're gonna talk to them" Ethan smiled 

"N-no y-y-you don't un-understand" I choked out 

"Y/n" Grayson said concerned 

"I c-can't b-b-breathe" I placed my hand on my chest 

I began to feel overwhelmed and started to panic. My chest got tight and my lungs were tied in a knot, my airways were blocked, I couldn't breathe.

I fell to the floor as I clutched my chest 

"Y/n!" They yelled 

I began to heave but no air entered my lungs panic rushed through my veins and everything slowed

~~~~~~ 

They held me tight 

"You mean the world to us, we love you"

This was kinda an ethan imagine to lol

PEACE ✌🏻