𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘆𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗱𝗼𝗹𝗮𝗻

Your happy without me

I peered from backstage and watched as Vanessa performed her dance. I looked out into the audience and my eyes landed on Grayson. He smiled, eyes big as he stared at Vanessa.

He use to look at me that way 

A single tear rolled down my cheek. I was knocked out of my trans as the cheers and claps rang in my ears. Vanessa smirked and slightly barged into me before walking into her dressing room. All I could hear was the beats of me heartbeat. I wiped the tear and slowly walked onto the stage.

I adjusted the mic stand 

"The song I'm about to sing is called jealous by labyrinth and it's about someone very special to me" I looked at Grayson "this song relates to...well everything at the moment" I stared at him "enjoy"

The music began to play 

I'm jealous of the rain 

That falls upon your skin 

It's closer than my hands have been 

I'm jealous of the rain 

I'm jealous of the wind 

That ripples through your clothes 

It's closer than your shadow

Oh, I'm jealous of the wind 

Cause I wished you the best of 

All this world could give 

And I told you when you left me 

There's nothing to forgive 

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was 

Heartbreak and misery 

Its hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way 

You're happy without me 

I'm jealous of the nights

That I don't spend with you 

I'm wondering who you lay next to

Oh, I'm jealous of the nights

I'm jealous of the love 

Love that was here

Gone for someone else to share

Oh, I'm jealous of the love

Cause I wished you the best of 

All this world could give 

And I told you when you left me 

There's nothing to forgive 

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was 

Heartbreak and misery 

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way 

You're happy without me 

As I sink in the sand 

Watch you slip through my hands 

Oh, as I die here another day, yeah 

Cause all I do is cry behind this smile 

I wished you the best of 

All this world could give 

And I told you when you left me 

There's nothing to forgive 

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was 

Heartbreak and misery 

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way 

You're happy without me 

I- I- it's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way 

You're happy without me 

Cheers erupted in the crowd but my eyes stayed focus on Grayson who had tears falling down his face. I wiped my own tears before running off of the stage.

I dashed to my dressing room. I shut the door and sat down at my vanity. I stared into the mirror and burst into tears.

He's moved on, he's moved on 

I repeated over and over in my head 

"I knew I shouldn't of fucking performed" I said frustrated with myself 

I packed up my things as it was time to head to my next show. I zipped up my suitcase and headed towards the door. I opened it and closed it after. I walked through backstage and couldn't help but notice Grayson and Vanessa in the corner making out. My heart ached. It hurt. Grayson broke the kiss and looked at me as he saw me staring. His expression saddened. I just smiled through the tears and opened the exit door of the building. I walked through the parking lot 

"Y/n wait!" 

I tuned around 

"What Grayson" I whispered while tears continued to stream down my face

He grabbed my hands 

"I'm sorry"

"Don't just stand there and say sorry gray" I whimpered

Tears started to fall down his face to 

"Can we Please just try again? Please y/ n"

"You expect me to say yes don't you?" 

"Y/n please" he sobbed 

"I just watched make out with your girlfriend, my ex best friend. So no Grayson. No....no....just leave me alone"

I pulled my hands out of his grip and walked away from him.

And never looking back.

Meh 😐

Your worth it everyone loves you ❤️

Stay beautiful 

PEACE! ✌🏻