The Mystery and The Mute (COMPLETED)

Ch.7

Lyrical's POV
I woke up earlier than usually I slowly and quietly went downstairs to see my mom still passed on the couch
She should be passed out for a couple of hours
I decided to let Jax sleep longer while I go take a nice hot shower. About 30-40 minutes later I got out and looked at myself in the mirror I looked and saw my cuts and bruises. I cried as much as I can I had to let it out I looked under the sink and got out a razor I slowly looked at it and put it back down
No I promised myself I wouldn't do this again
I promised me and and him and I attend to keep that promise

(WARNING: I WOULD NEVER WANT ANY OF YOU TO EVER THINK LIKE THIS, THIS IS JUST FOR MY BOOK IF YOU DO THINK LIKE THIS YOU CAN ALWAYS TALK TO ME SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER)

~Flashback~

July 22nd 2018

"Why me what did I ever do to anyone I mind my own business just why me" I cried into my pillow holding it tightly

"I guess I just don't belong here anymore no one will ever love me or date me I won't have a future with anyone" I sniffled as I walked to the bathroom making sure no one could see me

I hurried and locked the door  once I entered I turned on the lights and just stared at myself thinking of all the reasons why I don't belong here anymore
Fat
Ugly
Annoying
Freak
Brace face
Disappointment
Nobody

"Just do it, it would be better for everyone their lives would be easier" I said trying to convince myself to go it

Once I was convinced I got the razor and looked at it. I put it to my wrist and slowly put pressure on it until it seeped into my skin

"AHH" I yelled as it went a bit deeper "OWWW"

I didn't go too deep because I didn't know if I could do it yet. I stopped where I was and went to my other wrist I did the same thing, on my arms my stomach and my legs. I started to feel really dizzy like I would pass out at any minute. In the background I heard my dad yelling my name it soon got cut off and the next thing I know I was on the floor. My vision was going blurry and I couldn't hear straight.

"LYRICAL LYRICAL OPEN THE DOOR WHATS HAPPENING WHAT WAS THAT BIG BANG LYRICAL PLEASE ANSWER ME" my dad screamed from outside of the door trying to get in. That's the last thing I heard before I blacked out.

I woke up on my bed with bandages protecting my cut marks and alone. My head was pounding and I felt like I might pass out again. I looked up as I heard someone enter my room. My dad came in, sat 2 pills for me to take on my dresser and sat next to me on the bed.

"How you feeling LyLy" my dad said hugging me
Lyly was his nickname for me that I only liked him to call me.

"Ehh, sort of wondering why I'm not dead right now" I said looking down at my hands

"Your not dead because you weren't crazy enough to cut too deep into your arms to cut a vein, but tell me something lyrical and you have to be honest with me" he said looking directly into my eyes until I broke eye contact .

"I just have a lot of things going on right now" I sad quietly not looking at him.

"Well I won't force you to tell me but I'm your dad Ly if you ever have something going on you can ALWAYS come and talk to me" he says genuinely

"I know dad I just I'm tired can I get some sleep please" I say trying to change the subject.

He looked at me skeptical before talking