Try Again: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Athena Elle Carter
- three weeks later

No one told me that this was going to be that hard. I always read pregnancy is a dream boat and I'm here to tell you it's not. I feel aches in my back, I'm constantly throwing up and I've lost my love for cake which just saddens me.

On top of that nothing is 'okay' with Shawn yet. Yes, I'm indecisive but I can't help it. One minute I want to fall at his feet and beg him to forgive me for even questioning my love for him then the next every bad thing he's done to me comes flooding into my mind.

To add to this my family, my bloodline isn't supporting me. No calls or texts, just one from Liv, Theo's wife. She told me she had the baby a week ago. No one told me. She said I was welcome to come see my niece when I wanted but she'd have to talk to Theo first. Theo hadn't said anything yet and that broke my heart, he's always been by my side. As for Sam, well I bet he's not even thought of me. Mum had also told dad, I'm sure of it and like always he does as she says. So I have no support from my family.

However Erica is seeing me as much as she can. She invites me over for dinner just so I can talk to her and she can talk to me about pregnancy. She's literally the older sister I've always wanted. As for Leon, he really is my shoulder to cry on. Living with him is wonderful and I hope he finds his love one day because god knows he deserves it.

Now I'm finally moving out. Opposite Shawn's place. He insisted I just move in with him, I told him no politely, three times and he just nodded in defeat.

-
"Holy shit" I mumble looking at myself side on in the mirror in my new bathroom. "Hey baby" I whisper in delight. I run my hand down my stomach carefully, my hands were shaking so bad.

My eyes weep with happy tears. My little olive was growing healthily I hoped. I'd have to find out at today's appointment. Shawn should be here soon.

After a few more minutes of looking at my stomach in wonder I get changed into a plain white tee and blue jeans. I looked down seeing my small bump was on show.

"Athena!" Shawn shouts. I also gave Shawn a key just in case anything happened.

"One second" I say back putting on my heeled boots, I then decide to quickly change them into some trainers. I walk out the bedroom seeing Shawn stood looking around my apartment. He helped move in some furniture but he did it in his own time, when I wasn't here. Then Leon helped me with the rest.

"Ready?" I ask him grabbing my purse. He looks at me nodding then I notice his eyes go wide.

He takes three steps towards me, his eyes fixed on my stomach.

"Can I?" He asks. I nod watching him. He gets down on one knee and I look away quickly. I feel him move down then his two large hands go to my hips. "The olive is growing" he whispers.

I still don't look. I feel his forehead press against my stomach. "You be nice to Mummy" he whispers. Then I look down.

My heart fluttering at the sight. Like I said, I really don't know where my heart is but there was no denying this was a sight to see.

He gently moves his right hand across my stomach then he presses a small kiss to my stomach then he gets up. His cheeks flushed pink and his eyes glittering with happiness.

"I'm going to put a hoodie on, we don't anyone to know yet do we?" I ask. He shakes his head no handing me a hoodie from the sofa.

"Let's go" He says gently. I nod following behind him trying to calm my breathing.

-
"Okay so we have a date! Are we ready?" Dr Vanya grins at me. I nod eagerly as does Shawn. His hand in mine, when I first lay down he noticed my anxiousness acting up, my hands clenching tightly so he took my right hand gently and he hasn't let go.

"November seventh!" She exclaims. "That seems so far" I chuckle excitedly. "That's near your birthday" Shawn comments.

"Well the baby could come two weeks later or earlier" she tells us. "How big is the baby?" I ask.

"The size of a plum" Dr Vanya smiles. "When can we find out the gender?" Shawn asks.

"Two more weeks, the baby is a little small right now so next time, when you're eighteen weeks we can find out" she tells Shawn.

-
I groan softly fidgeting in the passenger seat.

"What's wrong?" Shawn asks me. "It doesn't matter" I mumble. My boobs were hurting so bad but I wasn't going to tell him.

"You can tell me, I'm not bothered" he says gently.

Fuck it. "My boobs hurt" I admit.

He looks over at me as to question if those words just fell from my lips. "Ugh can you stop the car place" I put my head in my hands feeling nauseous.

He pulls over then I hear him open the door.

The door opens and I feel him beside me.

"What is it?" He asks gently taking hold of my wrists.

"I'm going to be sick" I mumble. I feel him reach beside me to undo the belt then he takes my hand leading me inside some cafe quickly.

"Slow down please" I whisper. He opens the bathroom door for me. "Go" he rubs my back. I rush into the bathroom hurling over a toilet. This was the worst part for sure.

"Miss are you okay? Your fiancé told me to check on you" I hear a feminine voice. I look up at the woman nodding.

"I'm fine" I wipe the side of my mouth. "Come on" she gives me a hand up handing me some tissue. "Do you have any chewing gum?" I ask her. She nods giving me some.

"Stay safe sweetie" she tells me gently. I nod going to the mirror. God I looked horrible.

I put my hoodie up, putting my sunglasses down then I walk out to Shawn.

"I got you some water" Shawn says as he spots me. "Thanks" I mumble keeping my head down. He places a gentle hand on my back as we walk out.

As I'm about to get in he stops me.

"You look beautiful" he tells me putting the hood down. It's like he knew I wasn't feeling good about myself.

"You don't don't have to-"

"Just being honest" he cuts me off. "Thank you" I get into the car putting my hood back up when I spot the paparazzi.