Try Again: Shawn Mendes ✔️

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Shawn Mendes

The next morning when I got up the first thing I did was go to the mirror and cringe at how awful I looked.

I splashed cold water on my face repeatedly, put those weird slimy things under my eyes and then got in the shower. After last night I was determined, I was determined before but right now I know how bad I want her. I know I need her love. I don't need anyone else.

So I'm getting my shit together.

I got changed, jogging down the stairs. The boys had left earlier on and now it's just me, Athena and the baby, well the baby in her tummy or her uterus or whatever.

So I made breakfast for her. I'm winning her over and that's the plan, I know breakfast won't solve everything but it's a start. I'm going to right every wrong and I'm bettering myself.

On the table I had prepared pancakes, after several burnt ones, fruit, waffles, juice and a smoothie.

I was humming along to a melody I had in my head all day when I hear a cough behind me.

"Morning" her raspy voice making me turn around. "Morning" I give her a small smile.

My plan was to ease myself into her life. I'll start small, just like when we first got together.

"Everything looks so good" she say sitting up on a stool. I sit opposite her grabbing a plate.

"Thanks, I was up so I decided to just make breakfast. How'd you sleep?" I ask her. "Is my baby hurting you?"

She lets out a small laugh tightening the strings of her cream, silk robe.

"He's a pain. Just wants me up of my feet all the time" she says rubbing her hand over her bump. I loved when she did that, it was so innocent and so... just so cute.

"Thanks" she mumbles taking the plate I made for her. We both get eating and it was pure silence. Should I say something? Or-

"Are you working today? You haven't been in the studio for a bit"

"Erm Yeah, I might use the studio today. Wanna come?" I ask her hoping she would say yes.

"Hmm I'll bring my laptop, I haven't done any work in a while" she gets up. "Wait are you done eating?" I ask getting up with her.

"Yeah I feel a little sick. He won't stop moving" she says guiltily. "Oh don't worry about it. I'll meet you upstairs" I nod at her as she walks away.
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We were in our studio, well my office/studio and Athena was sat on the sofa, her legs out as she typed away on her laptop with her earphones in.

And I was sat up at the keyboard trying to piece together the melody in my head.

I glanced back at her and she was humming as she giggled at something on her screen.

"Look at this" She takes her earphone out. I go over crouching down beside her and she shows me the screen. It was some meme about how I was going to teach my boy the piano.

"Look everyone is being so nice" she scrolls through the comments on her post. "I'm glad, you don't deserve the negativity" I say.

She smiles down at me then looks away quickly.

"Ooo someone asked what we're calling him" she points to a comment. "How on earth do we decide a name for someone else" She says making me chuckle.

"You have a few names in mind?" I ask her sitting up on the sofa. She puts her legs up then puts them on my lap.

"I do. Do you?" She grins. "Hmm you tell me first" I tell her.

"Okay I like the names Haze and Mason" she tells me with biggest smile. I couldn't help but smile at her, she was so cute.

"I like those" I tell her, I put my hand on her smooth leg rubbing up and down hoping she wouldn't mind.

"What names do you like?" She asks. "I like them" I say honestly.

"No really, just tell me" she moves her laptop down and she wiggles down a little to fully lay down, her legs still on me.

"I like the name Flynn" I shrug. Her face lights up. "Oh I love it... Haze Flynn Mendes" She says.

I couldn't help but smile. That's my son. She's the mother of my son and the name slips so perfectly.

"I like it" I nod. "So you don't love it?" She asks raising her eyebrow at me.

"I love it. My baby haze" I reach out putting my hand on her stomach. "Wait watch this" She lifts her top and I wasn't sure if I should've looked away but I couldn't help it.

She takes my hand putting in on her bare skin and I feel the kick. "Watch" she moves my hand and we could almost see the kick.

"Holy shit" I chuckle in excitement. I felt her loving eyes on me. She wasn't looking away either.

"What?" I ask her. "Nothing... this is just so pure" she giggles.

"It is" I lean down kissing her skin gently, Obviously not in a flirty way but a comforting way.

"Hey hazey baby" she giggles, her hand set on her stomach. Oh god, the way she said that. It was the most cutest shit I've heard in my life.

"So Haze Flynn Mendes?" I ask her.

"I think so, it just sound right" she says with a smile. I nod at her words.

"It does" I nod. I watch her eyes move away from me, then her hand goes over mine.

"We can do this right?" She asks, I felt a sense of worry in her voice. "Yeah of course. I mean no ones really ready to look after a baby but we'll learn along the way" I try my best to comfort her.

"And us?" She asks. "We'll work it out with time" I tell her but also myself.