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TFP: Bulkhead x Anxiety!Reader

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Description: You and Bulkhead like eachother but you're both to nervous to constantly communicate. Then he was seen with two femmes (don't ask who, it's for the story line), and that sent you into an anxious state of mind.

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You felt your body tense. There infront of you was Bulkhead a long side two femme's and Wheeljack. It made your chest clench.

You and Bulkhead like one another but he's taking awhile to open up to you. Over the past few month you both shyly flirt and talk to one another, sometimes it's you who has to start the conversation.

Your heart jumped as he glanced at you, you couldn't help but blush. The giant green mech was about to wave at you, but you pulled Mikos' arm and dragged her to your room. Once there you wrapped your arms around her in a tight hug. The young teen started to rapidly pat your back,
"(Y/n) c-cant breathe." You quickly pulled away, the pain in your chest increased. Without missing a beat you started to breath heavily, not rapidly.
"Miko... I-I have this heavy feeling in my chest, l-like I was cheated on." You put your hand against your chest. Mikos' brown eyes filled with worry as she set you down on your bed, then an angry expression came across her face
"If I seen my boyfriend walking around with a bunch of girls, I would be mad too." She scoffed and wrapped her arms around you. You slowly let the hug help calm your heart down, and a few deep breaths.

It was easy for you to calm your self down from an anxiety/panic attack, you've gotten used to the feeling after being with your ex for so long. Your ex cheated on you a few times with your ex best friend, it was a situation you thought 'if he loves me he'll change.' He never did. Ever since then you have major relationship anxiety, doesn't matter if it's family, friends, or a significant other.

You let your head hang as you looked at Mikos shoes,
"I told you about my ex right?" Miko nodded and crossed her arms,
"You mean that asshole, (ex name)! Psh, yeah!" Her voice grew higher in tone as she spoke about you ex. You felt a small smile grow on your lips but it disappeared all to quickly.
"I think (ex name) messed me up bad! I just seen Bulkhead with two femmes and I lost it. My mind went to my ex and all they did, I thought 'oh no he's gonna end up being like my ex!" You felt the pressure come back to your chest but you took a deep breath to calm you down for a bit. Miko shook her head with a sad tone as she spoke,
"Bulkhead isn't your ex... He is never going to be like your ex. You know he likes you, a lot." Miko wrapped an arm around your shoulder in a comforting manner.
"B-but Miko... He can hangout and talk to other girls and everyone else but me... I mean how does that work! He doesn't like me..." you leaned your head against her shoulder, a lump in your throat made you take a deep inhale, trying to calm yourself before you broke down crying.
"Maybe that's just it. He doesn't know how to talk to you because he likes you, I mean if guys on earth are like mechs on cybertron..." Miko started to rub your back in slow circular motions to calm you down more. You felt a blush spread across your face at the action.

You get nervous easily, even around a bunch of people you know, you still blush and get all shy. It's not because you like them, it was just how you acted all the time.

You slowly jerked up from your bed, hearing a loud snore from beside you. You looked over to see a sleeping Miko, her expression in a peaceful state. Picking up your phone you checked the time, it was pretty late so you decided to go see if Ratchet was up. You slowly walked over to your bedroom door and out into the hallway, hearing the door click shut made you tense. You slowly made your way down the hallway toward the light in the main room, as you got closer you started hearing two voices that caught your attention. And as you got closer you recognized the voices.
"Jackie, I don't know how to talk to (y/n).. the way their (e/c) eyes sparkle and just everything about them makes my spark soar." You felt your body tense as the words that left through the wreckers dermas. You felt a deep feeling in your heart, a very lovey feeling that you couldn't explain it just felt... right.
You waited for awhile hearing there conversation until you noticed that Wheeljack was walking toward you, you hugged yourself against the wall hoping he wouldn't see you. You felt the ground shake beneath you, slowly fading away. You pushed your self away from the wall, slowly walking toward the main room.
While you walked you started to think about Bulkhead, everything about him made you happy. From the way he smiled, his laugh and those blue optics made you even more excited. You just liked everything about the wrecker, even some of his own flaws.

"(Y/n)? W-what are you doing up this late?" You suddenly stopped, looking up, those blue optics seemed to pierce your very being. What surprised you the most was that Ratchet wasn't up working on whatever the orange medic worked on.
You smiled up at the bot, waving your hand.
"I-I woke up awhile ago and decided to just walk around to ware myself out... what are you doing up?" You cursed at yourself for the feeling in your chest that started to slowly break your heart.
"I-I was just headed off to bed, I was talking with Wheeljack about some wrecker things!" His voice pitch slightly broke out halfway through his sentence. You felt a blush creep onto your face at the silence that followed. Bulkhead glanced at you for a sec before taking a few steps toward the hallway.
"W-well I'm going to recharge. You should get some sleep too (y/n).." His voice sounded slightly stern yet worried, it was a weird combination.
Bulkhead was making his way past you when you couldn't hold back your own voice. Your back turned to him as you lifted your head up and spoke.
"Why?" Bulkhead suddenly stopped, he looked down at you for a few second trying to process what he could've done.
"Why, what?" His voice sounded completely confused. You felt a bit of rage flow through your being, you clenched your fist and turned up to look at him. His blue optics made you almost break your own character.
"Why is it that you can talk to everyone but me? Sometimes I feel like you're ignoring me... I like you, and you like me but I feel like you don't since you were hanging out with a few femmes with Wheeljack." Without missing a beat you covered your mouth. Regret slowly started to sink into your heart, mind and body. You wanted to curl into a ball and sit in a corner to cry your eyes out, but you knew you couldn't take it back. Bulkheads' facial expression was one of confusion, worry and sadness. It took all his might to lean down and scoop you up in his servo. Those blue optics on you made it harder for you to breathe.
"I don't know what to say... I know it's weird I can talk to everyone else, but you, you make me nervous to the point I'm scared I'll say something stupid and you'll dislike me." There was a sudden realization that hit you,
"I don't like anyone else but you (y/n). I know it's hard for you to communicate, and I know your ex... gave you trust issues. I'm sorry that I wasn't there when he broke your heart." There it was, that same voice, that same tone. Just like (ex name) did when he was lying. You felt a lump in your throat as you shook your head,
"I-I know that's a lie, if you're anything like my ex, you're lying. That same time of voice that same thing he always did, you're lying." You felt tears stream down your face as you shook your head.
"Y-your lying! Y-you don't like me... You're just going to use me and everything else (ex name) did!!" You felt your breathing increase in pace, you tried to take a deep breathe but you couldn't help but freak out. You let out a cry of pain as you covered your eyes. Bulkhead felt a pain in his chasis, even if he was surprised at your outburst. He didn't know what to do, so he started to slowly rub circles on your back with a single digit, whispering sweet things to you. After a long time you calmed down.
"(Y/n), I'm nothing like your ex. I don't want you for one thing, I want you for everything you have to offer. I want to give you the same attention and the same affection. I like you a lot, I promise I will never do something like your ex did." You felt a slight relief wash over you as you heard those words, you tried to wipe away all your tears and snot but the tears kept falling. You felt a digit lift your chin up, you were looking straight into Bulkheads optics. There was a time stop as you both looked into eachother eyes. You tried hard to not turn away, but it was starting to make you feel over powered by the lovey feeling in your stomach.
Slowly the wrecker leaned in closer to you, his voice rang out in your ears as he leaned into you.
"(Y/n), you're so pretty, your shiny (h/c) hair and your beautiful (e/c) eyes and just... everything about you is beautiful." His voice was now a low whisper as he was inches from your lips.
"I like you (y/n)" and with that he closed the gap between the two of you, the kiss started off slow and sweet until the bot licked the bottom of your lip, you felt your eyes widen at the feeling. The green mech pulled away quickly with a visible blush on his faceplates.
"I-I'm sorry, I got c-carried away." You felt a blush rise to your cheeks again. You shook your head with a smile
"I-its okay.." after a few second of silence you decided to speak,
"I-Is it okay if I sleep with you tonight?" There was a long pause until the mech started heading down the hallway toward his berthroom.
"Of course (y/n)..." You felt a smile spread across your face.

Bulkhead really did like you... maybe you don't have to worry so much about him cheating like your ex did, after all he is nothing like your ex.

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It was rushed.