Boundless (Completed)

Delirious

J

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Two days, it has been two days since I last saw the light.

I’ve been locked up inside my own hellhole thinking nothing but a series of questions beginning with why.

Why did Lisa disappear?

 

Why won’t Lisa talk to me?

 

Why won’t Chaeyoung give me answers?

 

Why did Jisoo tell me to move on?

 

Why won’t Lisa show up?

 

There’s a lot more questions that popped up during those two miserable days of my life. But among those questions, the hardest one was;

Why did I even let Lisa enter my life again when she’s going to leave me just like the first time?

 

If I didn’t let her break my walls, I could’ve been stronger than I am today.

 

If didn’t let Lisa in, I wouldn’t be hurting like this, I wouldn’t be miserable like I am today.

 

But if I didn’t let Lisa in, I wouldn’t be happy even if it was just for a few days.

 

If I didn’t let Lisa in, I would still be that same cold-hearted bitch who lived in nothing but bitterness.

 

If I didn’t let Lisa in, I would never experience the warmth of true love.

I sit in the corner of my bed, staring blankly into nothing but space.

My tears have dried and my eyes are swollen. My cheeks are puffy and my face is numb.

Hours passed and suddenly my sight went black. Sleep took over, and I’m back at the fountain where Lisa is patiently waiting for me.

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Darkness, that’s all I can see but I spot a shade of green and a shade of pink.

I wonder what’s happening but my head hurts so much I can’t even bring myself to fully open my eyes.

There are voices around me, but they were distant and muffled, I can’t understand a single word they’re saying.

 

I wonder what’s going on.

The voices are getting louder and clearer. I wished they’d be quiet because I’m still too sleepy. It was a voice of two women arguing.