Forbidden Attraction - JAEYONG

Obstacles

J.

In this past weeks after Haeun left , I'm really feeling weird. She isn't here with me . I'm missing her a lot. But somehow I rare kind of relaxation is around me. I don't know why and what is it but surely I was liking it. It was like a breath in fresh air without any obstacles. Still life is boring. Of course as a fully capable grown up man how many days would I like to roam around my dads  company and do nothing because I'm not interested and dad won't pressurize me to take care of her pharmaceutical company. My passion is music. I love it and cherish it the most in my life. My family never stopped me from doing anything what I liked . Still I'm not trying to set my career as a singer . Because... Because Haeun doesn't like it. Not like she'll stop me or something. But she'll get hurt and I don't want to hurt the girl I love.

Johnny hates her because of this. He thinks she controls my life. Which is not true. Or not entirely true. Doyoung never meddle in my life because I met him in highschool . But Johnny is a different case. When I lived in America for 4 years , I met Johnny . Ever since he is my friend and never left my side. We contacted through email until he moved here . His constant bickering were annoying yet I never dispised him because i know he cares the most.

After Haeun left our conversations became shorter. Just hi hello and little talk. Yes she told me to wait and I'll do that. But it's not that easy for me when she is far away and not even talking to me properly. I don't know what exactly she does all the day but it must be important . I trust her. But I can't stay like this.

Doyoung suggested me months ago that I should join him in his agency. As a singer which I can't do. But I can definitely work as a song writer. I don't think Haeun will mind. Infact I already have more than 100 songs written also some of them composed. So I'll feed the agency pretty well if I join them which I'm actually planning to do.

I called Doyoung to meet me and of course I called Johnny too. No matter how much he irritates me , he loves me like his own little brother .

" Here is our soft baby boy . Come on .. " Johnny called me when I went inside our regular grill restaurant. We have spend Hours and hours drinking soju and eating grills in here. Doyoung turned his head and smiled.

" Hey guys "

" Come sit beside me . I'll grill meats for you. Us foreign swaggers gotta stick together" Johnny playfully said and I laughed.

" Mooyaaaa what about me ?" Doyoung whinned..

" You can eat carrots you bunny "

Johnny and Doyoung start bickering and I was laughing. It's always fun watching them bickering. We ate as much as our heart content and soju was going up.

" Guys .. i need to tell you something"

Both my friend transfered their attention to me .

" What is it Jaehyun?" Doyoung asked.

" Doyoung I'll be joining your agency as a song writer . I know you have been telling me this for a long time and I really did this late. But now I'm sure about it "

" It's really.."

" Why as a song writer not a singer Hyunie ? I know your passion for music. Singing to be exact"
Johnny cut off Doyoung by throwing a question at me and I knew what he was trying to say .

" It's because I prefer being a song writer. I don't want limelight. It's just I want to keep living a simple life "

" Your words or your dearest ' I love her and she calls me friend' Haeuns words?"

" Johnny stop " Doyoung tried to calm him down while he was holding my hand so that I won't burst out.

" No Doyoung. That's not fair . Why does Jaehyun needs to kill his dreams for her while she isn't even his girlfriend ? She is living her life fully . I don't care what girls do or wear but she is going around half naked in her photoshoots meanwhile she won't even let Jaehyun show his Vocal talent to the world . What kind of filthy hypocrite is she?"