I hate this. I don’t know what am I feeling. Sometimes I feel guilt. Guilt because I feel like I lied to you.
Sometimes I feel hurt. Hurt because these deflated mushrooms don’t seem to understand me. Hurt because I respect them so much even though they are unwilling to understand. Hurt because they don’t respect me back. Hurt because I love them more then I love you despite their misunderstanding. Hurt because I am unable to make them understand.
I feel lost. I feel so lost.
Sad. I feel even sadder by every millisecond of every second of every minute of every hour that goes by everyday. I hide it well now. At least I think I do. I am trying my best to get to you. I am legit always thinking about you.
I wish I could take away whatever happened to you. I wish to share whatever troubles you are facing. I wish I was with you. I wish that when I find my way to you are able to tell me what has happened. I know that even if you are unable to I will understand.
I just want you to be okay. I just want to see that you are okay. I want to make your days less miserable just like you made my days feel less miserable. I want you to know that I want to be there.
I feel like I’m failing as your best friend. I told you I would be there. I told you that you would never be eleven minutes away. I told you I’ll be there. I said that. And now this deflated mushrooms are making me a lair.
I don’t want you to feel alone. I don’t want you to ever feel alone. That’s why I always want to be there for you. This deflated mushrooms don’t understand. I want to be there for you because I’m your friend. But they don’t want to understand. I love and respect them so much. But I hate them for making to a lair.
I hate them for keeping me away from you. I hate them for not respecting me back. I hate them for not understanding. I hate them for treating our friendship like a joke. I hate them for laughing at me behind my back.
I hate them because our friendship is no joke.
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PoetryLetters to a loved one is so rare in the twentieth century. Rare like their friendship. Zubaidah writes letters. Zubaidah writes letters to her best friend Uzair. She speaks her mind in them. She loves writing them. It makes her feel special and imp...