You are such a bitch you know that. I am just saying how I feel. I am telling you how I feel in this letter because I know that you will not be able to take it if I had messaged you last night.
You of all people should know how easy it is for me to break your heart into a million pieces. You of all people should know that I have the power to crush your spirit. You of all people should know I have the ability to rip your heart out and paint it black. You of all people should how it hurts when I have to force you to let me go. You of all people should know that I had helped you build yourself up and I can take you down with just a few unsaid words. You know all of this.
You are such a bitch sometimes. You make me feel like I’m troubling you. You tell me I ruin your mood. You don’t even know this affects me.
Bitch, I’m sorry I got issues. I have problems a lot of problems. And I can’t coming running to you. Bitch, I’ve been there for you. Bitch, you are my best friend. Bitch, if I have problems I want to complain about them to you. You are such a bitch but I forgive you.
I wish I could remove myself from you sometimes. Just because you call me troublesome. I wish a lot of things. I wish I didn’t miss us being together. I wish I could get a reaction out of you. A very cute much like a dream reaction out of you.
You love me. I know. You don’t ever want me to leave you. I know. But I push you. I know. You are not as bad as I paint you out to be. I know. You are way better than I describe you to be.
I have to step back. I have to breathe. I have to remember what I told myself at the beginning of the year. I have to remember that their problems are my problems and my problems are mine alone.
Wish me the best of luck, Bitch. I love you.
YOU ARE READING
knowing just how to love you
PoetryLetters to a loved one is so rare in the twentieth century. Rare like their friendship. Zubaidah writes letters. Zubaidah writes letters to her best friend Uzair. She speaks her mind in them. She loves writing them. It makes her feel special and imp...
