Take Me(Camren)

Chapter 9 Complications

LpoV

I couldn't go to bed without talking to Camila again,I didn't know how things would go but I knew I had to talk with her no matter the outcome,I didn't even get to the elevator when I was confronted with Camilas face ,yet she was so drunk she couldn't even walk on her own,I was stumbling taking her to her room,it's like she couldn't comprehend that I was here with her right now,the alcohol might've burned her throat but every touch that she placed on my body burned my skin even more

I knew she was drunk but hearing her plead for me to stay made me want to kiss her even more than before,why was I like this,why did I want something so bad that was so obvious wouldn't work,we literally barely could even work with each other,

I had been angry at her but the way she spoke to me so softly,it just made me forget all that hatred from earlier today,"Please stay"her words made my heart flutter but even in this state I couldn't give in as much as I wanted to stay

As much as I wanted to caress her face more than I already had

As much as I wanted to jump into bed with her and cuddle all night

As much as I just wanted to take action and regret it later that night,I couldn't and I wouldn't,

She had been fighting her sleep and the alcohol the whole night but after hearing mention of Victoria again she was defeated,she didn't even try to open her eyes after that ,her body collapsed into the sheets and her hair spread the pillow tops,her lips were puckered as she slept but I couldn't bring myself to kiss her not like this,I removed a hair strand from her face and into the pillow silhouette,I kissed her forehead goodnight,and hoped she wouldn't recall the things she said from this night and even more I hope her actions wouldn't come back to haunt us both,because I knew this was dangerous, we couldn't start the match because as quickly as we turned on we burned off as well

I knew if this continued it would cause havoc in both our life's,she had whoever it was and I had Victoria why should we complicate this,us.

"Where were you"

"I had to go attend something With Camila"

"It's late what exactly...I mean if I can know"

"It was work things,I just didn't want things to be awkward after what happened with Edward "

"Mhm Edward,what are you going to tell your parents"the fact that Victoria still saw Edward as more than a threat made me kind of want to chuckle,yet I felt bad because I was able to easily lie to her now

"That the long distance thing was just not going to work out"

"Mhm you think those things don't work out?"

"Honestly no,only time distance helps is to get away from them and lose feelings"

"Is that what happened with us"she said caressing my cheek

"Possibly,I mean you know I was hurt,but it helped me see things....in a different perspective"

"It made me see things differently as well,but it also just made me realize how much of a fool I was to let you go"

"Yeah you're the only one to ever do that"I replied smirking

"I'm sorry about that I know that I truly want you"

"I just wants things to go slow Vic,it's been hard"

"But why, here we are literally sleeping together but I can't kiss you,you barely let me hug you"she said the annoyance of the situation in her tone

"You want to know why?"

"Why Lauren tell me why?"

"Because every time I think of kissing you the picture of you kissing that man pops up in my head and it makes me want to throw all of us away"I said honestly

"Lauren,I thought we were past that,"she said placing her head on the pillow again,the frustration obvious in her face 

"I thought I was too,you know what I'll go get a hotel for the night this just isn't working out"I said removing myself from the bed,

"Lauren wait i didn't mean for it-"

"But you did you want me to just forget something that broke the trust I had in you Victoria,I didn't ruin this you did "

"What?! Look at what you have done Lauren,you literally took another man as your "boyfriend"to meet your parents and you wanted me to go and watch you?!"she said getting closer to me practically screaming

"I don't know what I would have done but one thing for sure I know I wouldn't of done,is what you did Victoria,maybe we will never get past this."

"Maybe you're right"she replied,I quickly picked up the clothes I had scattered which wasn't much as I had already packed since I was leaving in the morning.She stood next to the door with her hand on her forehead just watching me pack and prepare to leave.I guess she really was over this.How crazy in a matter of days she was begging to be with me then leave me again.Maybe I was the problem.How could people so easily walk out of my life.

"Don't do this Lauren,I'm sorry"she said getting closer to me

"Look Vic you chose this you so easily decided that you could be with out me and walk Out of my life"

"I'm not the one leaving and walking out Lauren you are!"she said walking behind me as I made my way to the front door "it's like the whole time you didn't want to work things out Lauren what am I suppose to do when you aren't even trying,this isn't you"she sounded distraught but sincere,I knew it was true,I had tried more for Camila than for Vic

"I'm sorry I just need more time to figure myself out before I can figure us out"I replied really analyzing everything that was happening with me,all of this,because of Camila and I knew it but was too afraid to admit it before.She was the one I would forgive so easily now,she's the one I was fighting for even when I knew how hard it would be."I really can't give you more of me right now,"

"I don't need much"

"But I do Victoria,I can't ask you to give me all of you when I can't give you even a piece of me"I kissed her forehead before leaving her apartment.I got a hotel near the airport,which was also near Camilas hotel.With all of this happening with Victoria I was still thinking about Camila.A smile formed on my face as I remembered how she wanted to tell me so much but couldn't as she stated.I knew Camila struggled to express herself emotionally but it gave me hope even though it shouldn't of.