Katniss
Peeta and I are both extremely shaken up. I practically had to beg him to go downstairs to get himself water. Although, I have to admit I didn't want to let go of him at first.
Then, I hear voices coming from downstairs. I pray that it isn't Haymitch. I don't want to see him, or anyone else for that matter. I stand up, my legs wobbly. I still can't quite make out Peeta's words, even from the top of the stairs. "Peeta?" I whisper. Like he's going to hear me.
"Alright, thank you. Goodbye." The voices come to an end and I decide that I can walk down the stairs now.
"Peeta," I say. He's standing in the kitchen.
"Katniss, you scared me. Why aren't you upstairs?" he asks.
"Who were you talking to?" I say, ignoring his question.
"Oh, I was just on the phone," he says. I raise an eyebrow at him, as if to say with who? "It was just Dr. Aurelius." A feeling of panic courses through my veins.
"He called here?" I ask, fighting to keep my voice calm.
"I called him. I assumed you didn't want to talk to him."
A million what ifs flip through my brain. One of them, I'm terrified to even think over. What if they take me away from here; from Peeta? What if they force me to stay in the Capitol?
"What. . .," I pause and clear my throat. "What'd he say?"
"He wants us to get on a train for the Capitol tomorrow." My stomach feels as though its a rock, sinking in water. I am suddenly terrified, and Peeta sees it. "Don't worry. I'm not going to leave your side, I swear."
"But what if I have to stay there?" I whisper, my eyes desperately searching for some flicker of hope in his.
"Then, I'll stay with you." I nod sadly and rest my forehead on his chest.
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Later that night, Peeta and I are lying in each other's arms when he starts to speak. "I can't stop thinking about what happened, Katniss. And every time I do, I feel the terror, the panic I felt when first put together what was happening. I was just seconds away from losing you. If I hadn't knocked down that door, you'd be dead. I'd be alone, or dead." He pauses. "Probably dead."
"Peeta, no," I say. It hardly sounds like a whisper. My words fade away, into the nonexsistant breeze. The window I opened earlier is still slightly agape. "You wouldn't be dead."
"I would!" he says, turning so we're looking into each other's eyes.
"You're stronger than I am. You would live. For a little while at least," I say. And by the look in his eyes, he thinks so too. Peeta wouldn't kill himself after he found me; at least I don't think he would.
A line of The Hanging Tree drifts into my mind, causing a chill to run down my spine. Wear a necklace of rope side by side with me. The song now feels far too familar. I am the man, Peeta is the lover.
Maybe if we were both dead, it'd be so much easier. Where I told you to run so we'd both be free. I shake my head, knocking the eerie song from my thoughts.
Eventually, we both drift into a state in between sleep and wide awake. Whenever I close my eyes, I see the past day replaying vividly in my mind. How could I let this happen to myself? I'm stronger than this. I know I am. I've been through hell and back, and I'm finally safe. Or as safe as I'll ever be. I shouldn't be acting like this. I'm like a bomb, that wipes out everyone when I explode; Peeta especially.
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Always: A Hunger Games Fanfiction
FanfictionMy name is Katniss Everdeen. I am eighteen years old. I survived The Hunger Games twice. Peeta was hijacked. He was rescued and he's fighting to return to his old self. I led the revolution that led to the fall of President Snow. Snow. Snow is dead...