SSA Roberts (a criminal minds fic)

bottling up

After I had pizza with Garcia the team told us we could go home and to be back in the office by first thing in the morning since time differences were significant. Garcia and I decided to just go to my apartment and have a sleepover so we could just get back in the office together.

"So what side does spencer sleep on"

"Spencer doesn't sleep with me Pen"

"Why not"

"Pen, we've been dating for two days"

"Okay?"

"Go to sleep"

My stupid alarm went off and Penelope got up first

"Im showering first maddy"

"Fine i'll make breakfast"

She didn't address what happened 2 hours into sleeping. I had a nightmare. That I didn't save the women. That I died. I jolted up from the dream and it woke her up. She comforted me until I could fall asleep. It got me thinking if this would affect my job as much as everyone thought it would. I mean I think I'm okay.

Was I gonna have more?

No right?

I got a call from Spencer not long after I woke up

"Spenceeeee Good morning doc"

"Doctor Reid here"

"What's up"

"So Garcia told me something"

"My nightmare?"
"Yeah"

"Spence I really don't want to talk about it"
"You can't bottle it up and act like it didn't happen"

"When have I ever done that"

"Madeline I have an eidetic memory. Do you really wanna ask that?"

"Okay well I'm fine"

"No you're not fine Maddy. You know that. Let's just talk about how you feel when I get back okay?"

"Thanks Spence"

"That's my job. Prentiss said she misses you"

"If you don't give her the phone right now"

"Here you go"

"I'm literally the only girl out here right now. How does Pen do it?"

"I do not know"

We ended that call and I finally started getting ready.

When Penelope and I finished getting ready she watched me strap on just my hip holster.

"Pen you alright?"

"You're one of the few women who carry two, why are you only wearing the hip one?"

"I only wear my ankle one when I'm in the field. That one is strictly emergencies only"

"You know Spencer chose that red lace one"
"The one I got when I was Audrey?"

"Yeah we asked him which one he thought we should do. It was that red one or a black leather one"

"Oh my god" I said laughing

Spencer picked out the seductive red lace holster, this man.

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