Taming The Superiors (High Class Issue Series #1)

Chapter 09

Chapter 09: Celestial

"Fuck, why are you crying?!" Morde's eyes widened as he grabbed my arm, seeing celestial tears falling all over my cheeks. I shook my head and tried to remove his hand. Why did he still follow me? He shouldn't listen to a criminal like me.

"G-Go back there, Morde. Just let me go," my voice cracked, and I can't feel my legs anymore because of the pain that is crawling to my body like poison. I was ready to fight my fears, but I backed down when I realized that I wasn't enough to beat it.

"I'm not leaving you like this, Vel. You don't need to cry on what Rajna said because you know it's not true."

I can't even understand him anymore as if my ears are blocked. Kahit isipin kong hindi totoo ay nasasaktan pa rin ako. Fuck! Maybe forcing myself to change is a wrong idea!

"B-Bitawan mo ako, please..." I pleaded because he's grabbing my arm tightly. Suddenly, I can feel the stigma again on the way he's gripping my arm. That's how my parents hold me when they want to hurt me, and it's still clear to my memory how I begged for them to stop.

Here it goes again, the trauma that will haunt me until my last breath, and no one can take this away from me.

I killed my father when I was eighteen, and I was imprisoned for eight years. It was all my fault why they think of me like this. I should blame myself for this.

"B-Bitawan mo ako, huwag mo akong saktan..." pagmamakaawa ko habang nakapikit ang mga mata at pakiramdam ko ay tatay ko ang may hawak sa akin.

"D-Don't hurt me, I'm tired already," I keep repeating those words all over again for him not to hurt me. It feels like fear became tangible, sucking the very breath from my mouth. It was hell to be in my father's chains, and it feels like crying blood just to make him stop.

"Hey, I'm not going to hurt you, Vel. No one is going to hurt you. It's me, Morde," pagpapakalma sa akin ni Morde at naramdaman ko na pinakawalan niya ang braso ko na dahilan para dali-dali kong itago ang mukha kong panay ang pag-iyak.

I don't want the world to see me anymore because I think that they will not understand me. It hurts to think that no one will accept you when you make a mistake. It's just one mistake, but it was engraved already in their minds and considered me as a bad person.

I kept crying as I covered my face. I don't want Morde to see me like this. The woman in front of him is a criminal, worthless, and flawed. Is he not scared that I might turn into a monster behind this angelic face?

"Vel, huwag ka ng umiyak. Alam mo namang hindi totoo ang sinabi niya, hindi ba?"

"Tangina, kahit sabihin mong hindi totoo masakit pa rin, Morde!" hindi ko na napigilan na sa kanya ibunton ang galit na nararamdaman ko. Kahit sabihin niyang hindi totoo ay nasasaktan pa rin ako at itong mga luha na ito ang pruweba kung gaano ko kinaiinisan ang sarili ko.

"H-Hindi ako galit kay Rajna, galit ako sa sarili ko na nagawa ko 'yon sa tatay ko!" singhal ko at parang unti-unti akong nawawasak sa galit na pinapahirapan ako. Pagod na ako, pagod na pagod.