Taming The Superiors (High Class Issue Series #1)

Chapter 35

Chapter 35: Stay

"Welcome home," I said as I roamed around my room while smiling. My fingertips caressed the vintage curtains, and like my heels buried to the wooden floor on every step, it felt different.

The walls are painted in beige that signifies my purity and innocence. It's still good as it was then. They are still organized, especially the fairy tale books that I bought at the bookstore nearby our school and also the diary.

My room is like my own world. This is where I talked to myself and played with my stuffed toys. This is where sometimes I want to be alone, and this is my comfort zone wherein I can find happiness in a short period.

Kagaya ng ibang bata ay nababahiran rin ito ng kalungkutan. Ang kwarto ko lang ang nakakaalam kung ilang beses ako umiyak dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.

This is where I cry, and sometimes my parents also torture me here. Many memories are formed here. Here in this room is where my childhood started.

Bumaling ang tingin ko sa diary na nakalagay sa bookshelf. Alam kong ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko ay nakasulat doon pero wala akong balak basahin 'yon dahil alam kong mahihirapan lang ako.

Sa apat na sulok ng kwarto ko ay lahat ito ay naiyakan ko na pero isang lugar lang ang binabalikan at pinagtataguan ko.

Thorns surrounded my heart, and my mind went blank when I shifted my gaze towards the closet wherein I was always hiding so that my parents would not hurt me. I remembered those days that I need to fit myself through it just to hide from my parents.

"What happened to you?" I asked myself and stood up to step forward on the closet that is taller than me.

It's still good with its detailed curves and brown color. This closet brought a lot of memories, and this is where I hid that night, but what if I didn't come out of this closet? Maybe things will be different.

My hands trembled as I attempted to open it. Maybe, I will imagine my eighteen years old self who is hiding here. The look on her face is blunt, her lashes were bathed because of tears falling, and that girl is filled with anxiety. That girl lost her dignity at a young age. That pure little girl was abused by her parents and wished her to die instead. That girl is me.

When I opened the closet, my room became dark. All of a sudden, my childhood fears crawled like vicious poison. Ang kaninang mataas na sikat ng araw ay naging madilim at nabalot ito ng kulog at kidlat.

My eyes were twitching, and my lower lip shivered when I saw thunder and lightning outside the window. The lightning tore the sky with its dark cloud, and the thunders are like instrumental music that indicates fear and anxiety.

Nabuo ang takot at paghihirap habang unti-unti akong niyayakap ng mga alaalang pilit kong binabaon. Halos mapugto ang hininga ko na para bang sumisikip ang kwartong tinuring kong isang taguan. Nandito na naman ako sa sitwasyon kung saan pinapaalala na naman sa akin ang ginawa ko.