Family Again ?¡

Family Day

Tiana POV
Today is family day . Me and Hakeem like to spend as much time with the kids as we can because with us being famous we might not see them everyday. Right now we're on the way to eat lunch . We had to purchase and new car for our driver to drive us around since we got the twins. I've been so tired that's just the mom life though. Hakeem has been very suspicious lately . Coming home the next day instead of that night. Everytime I talk to him he's on the phone.if he is seeeing someone else . I'm not gonna get mad. I just wanna explanation on why he did this again . Oh yeah and I've also been diagnosed with postpartum depression . I feel like a bad mom , like I'm not good enough even though I rarely leave there side .its hard for me to bond with them. Some nights I cry myself to sleep since Hakeem never there at night to hold me . I know he's an artist and all but he's a father also and our kids come first. I mean I am mad that he's probably cheating because I love Hakeem always have and always will but I don't know if he feels the same anymore I'll just ask him later after we put the kids to bed.
Tiana:Babe so hows your music going?
Hakeem: it's been going good.
Tiana: okay( slightly annoyed)
Waiter: hello my name is Tatiana and I'll be your waiter for today. What will you be drinking ma'am
Tiana: a strawberry lemonade
Waiter: and you sir?
Hakeem: a Dr Pepper
Tiana: Mia and Bella tell her what you want and can we get a kid lemonade please
Waiter: yes ma'am
Mia: um may I get a Dr Pepper please and thank you
Waiter: no problem
Bella: may I get a sprite? please and thank you
Waiter: no problem sweetheart. I'll be back shortly with your drinks
Tiana: ok thank you . So Bella how is school ?
Bella: Mommy it's good. I'm the smartest one in my class!
Tiana: That's my girl good job ! Mia how i school for you?
Mia: it's very annoying but I'm one of the smartest people in my class!
Tiana: good job baby ! So after we leave? Do you guys wanna go to the park , the mall or get snowcones or something?
Mia: No mommy . Can we just go back home and sleep ?
Bella: oh yess please!!
Tiana: um sure okay . I just thought maybe you guys wanted to hang since I'm always with the twins but we could go home.
Hakeem phone starts to buzz and he just let it buzz but then it happens again and again
Hakeem: I'll be back.
Tiana: K
Tiana texted the driver she was ready and she took the kids and left . She also left 300$ and a 50 dollar tip . Tiana was just annoyed and the twins became fussy and the other kids wanted to go home . Tiana deep down felt like she was doing this by herself once again. Feeling the same why she did when she had Mia . It hurt her deep down. She didn't know what to do . So she took the kids to lu&cookies.
Tiana: Hey mama C & papa lu
Cookie: hey baby where's Keem
Lu: hey(he walked away after he spoke)
Tiana: I don't know but is it okay if the kid stay for a couple of hours . While I figure some stuff out . If Hakeem comes please don't tell him where I'm going.
Cookie: that's no problem baby. I'll call if they need anything.
Tiana: thank you.
Tiana left she got in her car and she went to see princess.
Tiana: Hey babygirl it's mommy. Your birthday is in the next couple of months. Mommy is so sorry . She failed you and your siblings. (Starts crying) I'm so so sorry babygirl. Mommy tried to be super woman and it blew up in her face . I tried . I'll never give up and I'm going to keep pushing. I love you baby. I wish you were here so you could see all your family . Mommy has to go know but I love you always you'll never be forgotten my sweet girl.
Tiana was just crying the whole time she was driving . She parked her car at a cliff . She sat in the car and just prayed .
Tiana: god I know that I don't talk to you as much as i should and I am ashamed but god why is all of this happening am I selfish for feeling this way ? I just don't understand but I'm calling on you because I know you will protect me . I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired , physically, mentally,emotionally just everything. Well thanks for listening (let's out a little laugh) I'm always holding in everything I feel a little better now .
Tiana drove home and went to the gym and had the music blasted . Working her ass off . Then she showered and went to the studio and recorded a song that she wanted !