I never wrote stuff before. But this might be my first "story". I think I'm going to write down what I have to go through everyday. I'm suicidial, selfharming and depressed. Maybe writing will calm me down. Let's just try it *** This contains self harm, depressed thoughts, abuse, swearing and suicide attemps. So if you find that triggering, I'd not read it. Although I say on the beginning of every chapter if it's triggering or not. It's your choice, and you can't say I didn't warn you! "enjoy" ***