Alsar

11home alone

ren

I went home first because I couldn't find Malik-san.

Though it's rare, sometimes I Malik-san will come home late so I will have the time for myself from time to time.

Well I'm usually alone when gathering Lulu grass but it's different, I'm on a quest so my mind will be more focused.

Now? I don't have anything to do so I just go to my bed and lay down for a bit.

It's probably around 16 o'clock right now. Malik-san won't be home until 20 o'clock so I don't have to prepare dinner now.

Ah..

When I don't have anything to do.. Somehow my mind started to wander into 'that' direction..

I haven't done 'it' ever since I came to Alsar. Afterall, Malik-san is always with me and even when he's not around I'm too afraid he will come back when I was in the middle of doing 'it'.

In the first place, I don't have too much of sexual desire. Even back in japan I only do 'it' around once every 3 weeks?

When I was dating someone, having sex is a given thing. Since it's normal to do it, I just do it. It's not like I had the urge to ravish her or something, it's just.. Since other people do it, I also will do it.

Well my relationship never last really long and I'm not that popular so I don't have much experience..

Sometimes when I went to drinking party, a girl will approach me but I rarely join the drinking party.

Ah, I guess I'm even more of a loner than I thought..

Umm.. When was it the last time I masturbate.. Probably around a month and a half?

If my friend were to know it, they would yell "It's impossible for me!". They all have high sexual desire afterall, they often boast to me that they do it every two days or something.

Will I become impotent if I hold it in for too long?!

I pull down my pants slowly and take my member out. 

Because it's been a long time, I hesitantly stroke myself..

Ah, a reaction.

I'm not impotent afterall.

"Ah it feels kinda nice.."

Should I really do 'it' now?

I have a lot of time right now so I guess I should.

Ok, first I'm going to take my pants off. I don't want to dirty them.

I take my pants off, fold it nicely and lie on my back on the bed.

"Ah, not good.. I can't think of anything..."

With my hand still holding my penis, I muttered.

This is not good, nothing comes in mind at all.

I tried to imagine holding some girl but it didn't work.

I already forgot the face of the idols back in Japan and the woman in Alsar is bigger and tougher than me.

I prefer to hold a small and delicate woman.. But since I've never seen any woman like that in Alsar, it's hard for me to imagine it..

Ah that's right since same-sex relationship is normal in Alsar, should I think about guy instead?

It's not like I have prejudice against gay.

Back in Japan, I never had a gay man approaching me so I don't have the opportunity to explore myself.