Chapter 21 - Anger, sadness and disappointment

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3 days passed and I just didn't talk to Diego as I was still mad at him for doing this to me.

He says he loves me, then he takes me to bed and the next day he's kissing Annalise like he's totally in love with her. I just don't understand why is he doing this to me. I just shouldn't have told him about my feelings, but I wasn't expecting him to use this...

I feel awful.

I feel awful, but not just because of this. Because Diego seems so depressed since that day. I don't know if he's just playing, or this is actually real, but it makes me worried too.

- Shall we go home now? - Rodri asked after we finished with another day - You really seem tired so I'll take you home, like it, or not!

- I was actually about to ask you that - I smiled tiredly as I held onto him - Please... Just do as you please!

- As you wish - he grinned then he suddenly picked me up.

- Jesus! - I laughed - I wasn't expecting you to do this!

- Well... You said that I can do as I please - he smirked - I just did as you told me to do!

- That's a correct response - I giggled - Alright then!

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Later at home...

- Don't you want to talk to Diego? - Rodri asked which surprised me pretty much.

- Why should I? He's the one playing with my feelings when he knows that I'm in love with him!

- You are?

Oh, crap!

- I meant I was... But he still wants me to admit it when he knows what's up!

- I see...

Nice save, Clari!

- But I still think you need to fix this...

- Why? So then he can hurt me again?

- No! Of course not!

He then took a hold of my hand.

- But I can see you're not happy with this situation... And I think he finally understood everything he needed to... But it's your decision, of course... I don't want you to do something that you don't want - he smiled warmly which made me smile too.

- I'll think about this... - I sighed - Thank you though... You always know what to say... - I added with a smile.

- I just want to see you smile... That's all - he smiled then hugged me gently, but I still feel awful for not teling him the truth, but it would be much worse if he'd know.

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A few more days later Diego seemed to get back to normal, but something's not right as he keeps his distance from Annalise.

I wonder why.

After one scene he stopped me from going to the restroom.

- Clari, I know you hate me, but you being away from me is just killing me... Please... Don't avoid me anymore... - he begged.

- Diego, I...

Suddenly Rodrigo interrupted.

- Can I talk to you for a minute alone, Diego? - he asked.

- Sure... - he muttered and I left them alone now, but I was worried.

Diego's POV:

- So? What is it? - I asked Rodrigo as I looked at him.

I really didn't want to talk to him, or even close to him as he has my love and not me, but I couldn't leave.

- You know that I'm your friend and I'd never do this... But I'd recommend you to stop hurting Clari now because this isn't going to make her forgive you...

- Don't worry - I groaned - This soon is over then she'll go to Italy while I'm going to France so we won't meet too often.

- I know...

- So? Now I can go?

- Yes... - he mumbled. He probably wasn't expecting me to be so angry.

But I'm honestly not angry at him, or Clari, but myself all the way.

I should break up with Annalise as soon as possible and even though Clari and Rodrigo are together atleast I won't be making this big mistake to be with someone that I don't even love the way I should, I should to get married and the way she'd deserve...

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